Death by Sea (Pernico fanfic)

Chapter 24: Pushing the Limits (Nico's POV)

 *Warnings of sexy times later in da chapter* (I am so so so so so so embarrassed right now, pls don't hate me forever)

Love is a dangerous thing...

It whispers sweet nothings in your ear along with the worst of insults.

All while making sure you don't notice a single thing that it does to your heart. The fact that it poisons you to think you'll never need to love again.

They'll never break up with you...

It whispers.

They love you...

Love blinds you and you don't even notice until...

It's too late.

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Love is something that I never thought I could handle... properly? I mean I was either without enough investment or too much altogether. Percy was the first person to truly allow me to love passionately and without abandon. I mean, I was weakened by his good looks, charming personality, and his presence when I needed someone to hold me.

Percy was someone I felt I could fall back on, he was someone who seemed to be... trustworthy. Especially now with these memories hazing beyond belief. It was going to be even harder for me to find who I am and what I want.

What do I want? Percy? Life with him? Love?

A knock came on the bedroom door of the hotel we decided to stay at for another day to ponder the travel situation. I looked up and Percy walked in, using his room key. I stood and looked out the window, unsure of why I stood in the first place and feeling too awkward to just sit down again.

"Nico?" Percy looked at me with his slightly wounded sea green eyes that I feel for once and am now falling for again.

"Percy," I replied.

"You're not still... mad at me, are you? I'm sorry for pushing you-"
"Pushing your limits is... not always bad. I'm sorry I snapped earlier," I apologized. Percy just smiled at me.

"Don't worry, I'm just glad you're not... mad at me," he said softly. "Nico?"

"Yes?"

"I love you," Percy said with a small smile.

I felt my heart tighten in my chest, something that would be worryingly unhealthy if I wasn't looking at Percy. I felt a heat rise up my cheeks and I looked away.

"I love you too," I whispered. Percy tilted his head a little and smiled that sad small smile he tended to give people lately. I wondered if you could get tired of loving someone. Especially if that someone was like me.

"Nico?"

"Yes?" I felt my hands starting to shake, so I shoved them in my pockets.

"Are you... not in love with me anymore?"

What? How could Percy doubt that...? If anyone should be tired of being in love with the other it should be Percy... right? I'm the one who seemingly died in a failed attempt to get rid of a Shadow.

"Why do you ask?"

"You... tend to look scared whenever we talk and well... I wanna kiss you like I did when we found each other again, but I don't know what's okay and what isn't," Percy admitted.