I lost myself loving you || a.hotchner

5

I woke up in my hotel room, and thankfully last night the suspect finally confessed meaning we were able to sleep in till 12 and leave for home as late as we wanted to. So I was able to rest up after not sleeping for almost 36 hours straight. When I woke up I was slightly confused at first, my body clock messed up to the extreme as I glanced over to look at the bedside alarm clock.

11:13AM. I was still kinda tired, I could probably sleep all day if I was allowed but I knew I couldn't. We planned on leaving around 12 and I didn't want to be the reason everyone had to wait. I took a cold shower that actually helped wake me up this time, got changed and headed down to get a cup of coffee.

I could always take a nap on the jet as well, in fact, I planned to do just that. As I was getting my coffee I felt a presence next to me and turned to see Hotch. He looked like he had been awake for quite a bit but he was more dressed down than usual. Jeans and a button up. He looked really good though, he always did. "Morning." I say with a smile and he nodded, pouring himself a cup as I stirred my sugar into my own cup.

"Good morning." He says with a nod, a softness to his eyes and then the events of last night hit me. I kissed him. I had kissed him and he kissed me back. Oh my god. "Uh I'm sorry.. for last night. That was really unprofessional." I say and he softly smiled, leaning down and closer to me. "It wasn't unprofessional. I liked it." He says lowly and I tilted my head. "It.. it wasn't?" I ask and he offered a close mouthed smile. "No, I'm the boss and it was a mutual kiss. So it wasn't inappropriate." He says and I couldn't help but let out a chuckle. "So if I hypothetically wanted to kiss you again.." I trail off and he looked down with a smile, chuckling a bit before meeting my eyes once more.

"Well, hypothetically, I'd really like that." He says with a nod and a smile and I placed down my coffee cup. "Yeah?" I ask and he nods, his eyes flicking down to look at my lips before meeting my gaze again. "Hey is there anymore coffee?" Derek's voice floated through the air and I slowly grabbed my cup and stepped back calmly as to not look suspicious. Thanks for being  the mood killer, Derek.

"Uh yeah, still more than half a pot." I say with a nod and he smiled, grabbing a cup to pour himself one. "So we're leaving at twelve still right?" Derek asks, turning to look at Hotch who nodded. "Yeah, is everyone else up?" Hotch asks and Derek shrugged. "Pretty boy and JJ are up, three of us got breakfast earlier. No idea about Rossi and Prentiss." He says and Hotch nodded, his eyes briefly meeting mine before he looked away. "I'll go check on them." I say, downing my cup before hurrying off with a small sigh.

Rossi was already up, I could hear a Frank Sinatra song playing softly on the other side of the door as he sang along. He was probably getting ready. Emily was still passed out though and I knocked loudly, speaking loudly to remind her we leave soon and once she yelled back a muffled reply I left to let her wake up. She's not a morning person and I value my life, thank you. I headed back to my room to grab my bags, waving to Spencer and JJ who were walking with their bags in hands, heading down to the lobby. "Sleep well?" JJ asks and I nodded softly.

"You wore Em out? She was still asleep." I say and JJ looked shocked. "I uhm- what?" She asks and I smile. "Emily slipped up and said she was gonna ride to the hotel with you guys since she didn't want to be woken up by you coming into the room. We all have separate rooms it spoke for itself." I say and she looked mortified. Spencer looked shocked, a slight smile on his face as he stared. "You and Emily are together?" He asks and she opened her mouth to argue but closed it, nodding.

"Well kinda uhm, we're in the dating stages. Nothing too serious. Hotch knows..?" She asks and I shrug. "I mean he was there. He didn't say anything about it, so I doubt he cares, J. Don't get upset. I'm happy for you both." I say while opening my door and she smiles with a nod before hurrying off, Spencer following suit excitedly with a bunch of questions. I smiled with a sigh, going to grab all my bags before locking up my room and heading down to return the key before following everyone out to the SUVs so we could head out to the airport. I leaned my head on the cool window, fighting to keep my eyes open as we drove there.