I lost myself loving you || a.hotchner

6

Tuesday couldn't come soon enough.

We hadn't been in work since the case since we finished on a Thursday and we always get the following day off plus we get weekends off, and for some reason Hotch gave us Monday off as well, so it's been quite a bit. I found myself excited each day it was closer and the morning I woke up on Tuesday, I couldn't stop myself from smiling. Especially when I woke up from a good morning text from Hotch that read "Work today, can't wait to see your smile" reading that truly warmed my heart.

I was slightly nervous but overall excited. I couldn't wait to see him again. I guess my crush was stronger than I had really thought. Didn't help that my feelings were reciprocated as well, which only made the feelings grow stronger. Dammit Hotchner. I walked into the bullpen, a smile on my face and immediately I caught Hotch's gaze and he softly smiled from the stairs leading to to his office when he saw me which only made me smile wider, I watched as he leaned forward against the railing, eyes not leaving mine.

Man he's gorgeous in every single way. I felt a hand on my shoulder and I hurriedly turned to see Emily, jumping a bit as I did so. She caught me off guard a bit. "God, are you done eye fucking our boss Y/n?" She whispered with a smile and I playfully nudged her and rolled my eyes. "Oh shut up Prentiss." I say and she smiled. "Ask him outtt. Do you see how he's been looking at you? I'm serious." She asks quietly and I couldn't hold back a wide smile as I raised up my eyebrows and she gasped, covering her mouth.

"Bathroom, now. Talk. Walk let's go." She says, excited as she dragged me by my wrist and I couldn't help but laugh and right when we stepped into the bathroom she turned to me and squealed. "Y/n! No way, you need to tell me everything!" She says excitement clear in her words and I could help but smile. The door opened, and JJ followed us in. "What's going on? Why'd you guys run off like that?" She asks, curiosity behind her words. "Y/n asked Hotch out!" Emily whisper yelled and JJ gasped, clear excitement making its way on to her features.

"Listen okay, uh so remember when I pulled that all nighter and was really tired?" I ask and they both nod, JJ wrapping an arm around Emily's waist. "Well, okay so I may have kissed him while in his hotel room when we got back." I say with a smile and JJ gasped and Emily smiled widely. "Holy shit! Go you!" Emily says and I couldn't help but smile widely. "That's not it! So the following morning when we left he asked me to do it again while getting coffee, Derek cut us off and then on the plane he wrote me a note saying I owed him another kiss that wouldn't get interrupted and so I suggested a date would be the perfect place and we set it for tonight." I say, excitement behind my words and they both immediately cheered, pulling me in for a hug.

"I hope it goes well honey! You'll do so well." JJ says, rubbing my shoulder and I giggle, nodding. "I hope so." I say, as they pull away. "This is so great. You have to let us know how it goes after." Emily says and I nodded, promising I would. After we all calmed down from the excitement we left to head back to the bullpen, ignoring the questioning looks we were given by the rest of the team as we sat back at our respective desks. The day had went by surprisingly quick. We didn't have all that much paperwork so most of the time we were kinda goofing off a bit, talking amongst ourselves as we did our work.

It was a good day back if I'm being honest, and knowing the fact I had a date later with our boss just made it all that much more exciting. I was ecstatic, honestly. About 10 minutes before work ended I headed up to hand in my work, knocking on his office door, waiting to be told to come in before I did so, offering a small smile as I stepped in. I noticed that he immediately sat up more straight in his chair upon seeing that it was in fact me, and not anyone else. It was flattering, if I'm being honest. I shut the door behind me, stepping a bit closer to his desk.

"I'm excited for tonight." I say with a smile and immediately my mood shifted when I had noticed him furrow his eyebrows together in confusion. Please tell me this is a joke. "Tonight..? Do you have plans?" He asks, folding his hands and he leaned forward slightly in curiousity and at first I thought he was joking but the look on his face showed genuine confusion and I felt my heart drop. He forgot. "Are you joking with me or..?" I asked and he only looked more confused and my heart sunk even further than before. Oh.