Her World

Chapter Nine

Chapter 9

I’m just lying on my right side staring at my bedside table clock, just lying here watching every second go by. I’ve have been doing this since Noah left my room, still too afraid to move. The clock finally ticks to 5:00am. I knew Melissa and Noah wouldn’t be up yet, especially Noah. I couldn’t face him, not after last night. I can still feel his breath on my neck, his hands on my arms. A shudder courses through my body, I don’t understand what I did to deserve this, he was Melissa boyfriend so what was he doing in my room last night.

I peel my covers off my body and actually inviting the cold air. I walk over to my mirror and look at myself. Ugh still old fat, ugly Marie. I run my hand over my cheek and down to my neck where he kissed, my stomach starts to turn. Suddenly I start to feel dirty, even though I had a shower last night i need another one, I need to get him off me.

 I quickly scramble in to the bathroom, locking the door. Before I get into the shower I brush my teeth. After I’m done I turn the shower on. I decide against washing my hair, it’s just my body. I grab my brown scraggly hair and tie it in to a bun. Setting the water temperature to hot, I move my body under the heat. I lean my head back making sure it doesn’t get to wet. I grab the scrubbing bush and soap and start to clean my body.

The tears were now escaping my eyes, as the scrubbing starts to get harder; I can feel him on me. It doesn’t matter how much or hard I scrub I can still feel him on me. Turning the water up even hotter that it’s now scolding my body, I wash my body header. My skin starts to burn under the intense heat, the sting from the brush. I look down and see from the pressure I’m using there’s a little breakage in my skin but I can’t stop. My cries involuntary rip through my throat; I finally collapse under the shower, not caring if my hair is getting wet. Bringing my knees to my chest, I just let the sobs course through me. 

A knock at the door brings me out of my trance, my breathing hitched. I quickly pull out from under the shower, grab a towel and wrap it around my blazing body. I slowly unlock the door. Please don’t be Noah. Please don’t be Noah. Please don’t be Noah. I chant over and over again, I can’t see him, not now. I peel the door open, but letting out a breath to see Melissa standing there. I don’t think i have ever been so my happy to see her.

“Finally you’re done. For someone who doesn’t really dress nor have the mannerisms of a girl, you sure take your time in the bathroom.”  Melissa states, usually this comment would get to me but right my I’m just relived to see it’s not Noah.

I just give Melissa a smile before running off to my room. Once I’m in my room and I turn around my slam the door shut, I roll my head back, close my eyes and let out a breath. I did it, I didn’t see him, and a grin makes its way on to my face. I prised my eyes open and get out a gasp, before I can scream his hand is over my mouth.

“Shh little one, wouldn’t want your sister to overhear this now would we?” his breath tickling my ear as he whispered. I shook my head implying a no.

“I’m glad you understand.” I can’t move, not only because his hand is against my mouth but also I don’t want to move and accidently drop my towel. I grip the towel tighter around my shoulders.

“Now little one, I’m going to remove my hand and you’re going to be quiet, remember our little agreement last night? I’m sure you did, I know I did.” My breath once again hitches in my throat, I begin to feel dirty again just him talking about last night. Maybe if I close my eyes, he will disappear, none of this would have happened. I feel his hand move from and mouth and I make my move. I lunge forward trying to get away from him but he feel his rough hands curl around my wrist yanking me back. A yelp breaks through as I feel my towel slip as flew back to Noah chest.