A/N: Ito na ang hinihintay niyong Pov. Soooo....
Amanda.
It's been a while since the last moment when i see my self laughing like there's no tomorrow.
And it's been a while since i'd been truely happy with my life.
Because now, I don't know why I'm still living in this world and in this place that full of pain, heaviness, trauma and full of darkness.
There's no light. There's no brightness in my life. And now i'm get used to it. But i'm always asking myself, why i've been here.
Do I deserved it?
I don't know how long i've been dealing with it. Longing for someone. Dealing with pain. Dealing with sadness. Dealing with my trust issues every corner in my life.
I just want to be happy, again.
I just want to be free, again.
but how?
how can i get back to where i used to be.
how can I escape this shits?
I don't know how to escape to this darkness. On his darkness.
I'm scared. And I don't felt home anymore since the day that i need to left her.
I left my girl because I thought that even though we were far away to each other, I would be happy. But I'm wrong.
Yun na din pala ang huling beses na sasaya ako ng totoo.
Hindi ko naman alam na yun na ang huling magiging tawa at saya ko. Sana sinulit ko na.
Sana hindi ko na lang siya iniwan, ng mag isa ba naman siya.
Sana hindi na lang ako umalis sa tabi niya.
Sana mas pinili ko na lang manatili sa kanya.
Before, even without my parents by my side, I knew I had everything. Because of her. Because I had her.
I had my best friend.
Bacause I had Jaydee.
She's always been there when i need at least one in my side.
She always protect me. She always trust me. She always finds a way to make me happy.
