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Warnings: Suicide :(
It's been a whole year...
A whole year that I've spent without my best friend and my boyfriend, Victor Salazar who killed himself so unexpectedly...
I knew there was something wrong with him and I knew he wasn't mentally okay at the time
I tried to help the best I could, I tried to get him to see a therapist, he used to talk to me about whatever he wanted to, I told him to start some new hobbies to get his mind off things, but I guess I didn't try hard enough because, in the end, he died
And now I'm sitting at his gravestone sobbing my heart out as I read the letter he wrote to me over and over again
I still remember the day my entire world collapsed
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"Hey, babe!" Victor smiled walking up to me "hey, handsome" I smiled back at him as I closed my locker "here, I, uh, I want you to have this" he said handing me an envelope "what is it?" I asked about to open it when Victor stopped me "wait, wait, wait. Don't open it until about 6 pm tonight...okay, please promise me you won't open it any earlier" he said
"Okay, I promise I won't." I said putting the envelope in my bag "okay bye, I'll see you after school" he said "yep, after school" I said back before we both walked our separate ways to class
After school was over, Victor and I met up at his locker "can you stay at my house tonight, I miss your cuddles" I could see victors facial expressions change with the sentence "um, I really can't tonight...that's why I gave you the letter." I was confused "oh...okay"
When victor closed his locker we both held each other's hand as we walked to victors apartment
"Bye, Benji..and just to let you know, you've always been my favorite person, okay? You've lit up my world like nobody else. I love you so much..just don't ever forget that" he said looking down "where's all this coming from?" I asked "I don't know..I just wanted to tell you how much I appreciate you and how much you've done for me in the past year we've dated" he smiled sadly "are you okay?" I asked cupping his cheeks "yeah...I'm fine" He said running his hands through my hair
"I love you too, Victor..so much" I wrapped my arms around his neck pulling him in for a hug.
And who knew that that would be the last hug I will ever give to him
"thank you Benji...for everything" he smiled "bye I'll see you tomorrow" he turned to face me before nodding and walking into the apartment building.
I decided that I was going to open the envelope a little earlier than he told me to because my nerves were getting the best of me
It wasn't normal for Victor to come out and say something like that without something being wrong.
