Jack Of All Trades | COMPLETED

Chapter 28

Time heals all wounds.

Akala ko dadalhin ko ang bigat ng nangyari sa Italy pero habang tumatagal ako dito sa New Zealand, unti-unti ko nang pinapakawalan ang mga bagay na humihila sa'kin pababa.

Medyo matagal na rin, eh. With time, I'm slowly replacing the vacant parts of myself with new people who can help me start anew.

Alastair was there to help me pick up my pieces. Sa condo niya ako tumira ng dalawang taon. We helped each other with various things. He gave me a place to stay, I do everything I can to keep him company. It's an equal give and take between the both of us.

Sa loob ng limang taon, hindi ko na mabilang kung ilang biyaya ang dumating sa'kin.

When I found out I was pregnant, I panicked. I admit that I tried overdosing myself to abort the baby. Ang hirap pa ng sitwasyon ko dati at ayaw ko naman dalhin ang baby para lang makiramay sa kaguluhan ng mundo ko.

It's Loki's child. I know that it's his.

But for me, it's Alastair's.

He saw my child as his own. He convinced me to keep the child and that he'll provide for us. Ayaw ko naman dati pero sobrang nagpapasalamat ako na kinumbinsi niya ako.

Ali asked me out after a few months since I arrived. Akala ko nung una naawa lang siya sa'kin dahil wala akong mapupuntahan dito pero nakita ko rin naman na gusto niya talaga ako. why would I be wearing his engagement ring if he doesn't like me, right?

Siya rin ang nagdala sa'kin sa obgyne clinic noong nalaman niya na buntis ako. It was embarrassing, parang natatapakan ang dignidad ko, pero natutunan ko na lang na ibaba ang pride at tumanggap na lang ng tulong. Pride won't get you anywhere if you don't have anything to bargain.

Naging simple lang ang pamumuhay rito. It isn't extravagant and luxurious than the life I thought I would have, but I'm content.

I found a new identity as well; Prada Eloise Sanberg.

I became a florist at a nearby flower shop then after some time, Alastair and I decided that we should build a house for our family.

For the first time, I felt calm again. Hindi na 'ko palaging nagaabala na baka may bigla-bigla na lang pumatay sa'kin. I'm living a normal life with a normal partner. There's a stable job for me and my income is surprisingly tolerable. New Zealand really has the best government since our taxes are low and are actually put to good use.

Hindi ko pa rin mapigilan ang pagkukumpara sa kanila ni Loki, pero alam ko na gusto ko si Alastair dahil mabuti siyang tao. He never experienced parental love so he's pouring it all out to my child... hindi nga lang nare-reciprocate.

"Baby, come here."

Jeime went closer to me, hugging his pillow. Nakabusangot siya at mukhang iritang-irita ngunit nilapitan niya pa rin ako.

Dahan-dahan ako na umupo sa tabi niya habang nakatungo lang siya sa may headboard. This naughty boy, really. Mukha siyang anghel ngayon na akala mo naman hindi niya binasag yung coffee table kanina dahil hindi siya binigyan ni Alastair ng paborito niyang chocolate.

Hindi si Jeime mahilig lumabas ng kwarto. Kadalasan ay nandito lang siya, naglalaro ng toys niya. Kaya naman naisip namin ni Ali na gawing buong kwarto ni Jeime ang second floor. It's wide as hell but he isolates himself at a corner.

He's diagnosed with Borderline Personality Disorder. It's a mental health disorder wherein people who are diagnosed with it are usually marked by an ongoing pattern of varying moods, self-image, and behavior.

As much as possible, the doctor said that we should acknowledge everything he wants and make his feelings valid. Nagiging disruptive na raw ito kapag maging adolescent na siya kaya habang bata pa, kailangan na niyang itatak sa utak niya na may support system siya.