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Shawn Mendes

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"You've got holes on your jeans, and a few in your heart"

There was literally no words to explain how ashamed I was feeling at the moment.

Walking down the school hallway on a Monday morning, I felt everyone watching me and starting to whisper and laugh. Of course they would do that. Everyone loves gossip. And right now, I was gossip, and it wasn't even true.

"She's such a slut." I overheard a girl commenting. I turned around to look at her and I just kept walking, but all I could think was 'seriously?'. The girl who was just saying that is the same one that in just the last month has made more than 5 girls brake up with their boyfriends because she told everyone she slept with them and took pictures for her kissing them by surprise, but making them look like they were kissing her back. Just because she heard they didn't like her. And she was calling me a slut.

I never did anything to deserve this. But of course, who would believe me when the entire football team was saying the contrary? They were talking lies, it was obvious, but no one was ever going to see through them. Because they loved those lies.

If you see it, there had no valid point to believe them, they just wanted to. I was just this really awkward girl with a wanna be punk style and a few good friends, but still getting along with a lot of people.

I was putting my things in my locker when I felt someone towering over me from behind. I didn't have to look to know who it was. My palms started sweating, my legs were shaking and my knees almost gave out. I didn't know how I was going to face him knowing what he had heard about me.

"Hey, ummm... can I talk to you?," he said, nervous, but not more than me.

I tried to keep my cool. "Sure," I mumbled.

He pulled me into the janitor's closet to get more privacy and turned the light on. There was no way we could speak normally with all those eyes making holes on our faces.

"Please tell me you didn't do it," he said, breathing rapidly.

"What? No, of course I didn't," I said.

He let out a breath he had been holding for a while now. "I never actually believed it, I mean, I... I know you would never do something like that I just...," he cut himself off mid-sentence when he suddenly pulled me in a hug, practically squeezing the life out of me. After a bit he relaxed his arms a bit so I didn't feel like I was in danger of asphyxia, but still holding me close. "I just needed to hear you say it," he finally whispered.

I hugged him back and ran my hand up and down his back, as he did the same with my hair. We stayed like that for some minutes until I finally talked.

"I'm so sorry."

"You don't have anything to apologize for."

"Yes I do. Your always here for me even at my worst and I never let you in enough. I can't even be with you as a couple. Fuck, I even rejected you once even though I already knew knew you loved me, and I loved you too. I still do, I swear. I'm just... I'm scared."

"You have nothing to be scared of. I would never do anything to hurt you," he said pulling back and looking at me as he tucked one strand of my hair that had fallen into my face behind my ear.

"I just don't feel like I'm absolutely ready to trust again."

"And I understand that. And I'm willing to give you all of the time and space you need. Ok? I would never do, nor make you do anything your not completely comfortable with. I'll wait for you as long as you want me to, no matter how long that is. And if after all that time you realize you want to be with someone else, or you just don't want to be with anyone, then do not be afraid to tell me. I'm going to be honest, it's gonna hurt, a lot. But you have to remember that you are free to do what ever you want to do. And if you're happy, then I'll be happy too. Yeah? Is that ok?," he said, caressing my cheeks gently.

I nodded slowly. "Thank you so much, Shawn. I really really love you, I truly do."

"I know, princess, I love you too. Come here," he said and pulled me into his arms again, where, slowly, I was starting to realize it was the safest place for me to be.

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