Moonage Daydream (Ciudad de Escalante #4)

Phase 28

Zachariel:

I know you're busy but don't skip your meals, please.

Zachariel:

Cassiel told me you skip your meals again. Is there something wrong? Is it included in your diet plan?

Zachariel:

I'm sorry I can't eat with you these past few days. I've been busy with training. Did you receive the lunch I ordered for you? Cassiel told me you didn't take any bite. Don't starve yourself, hmm?

Zachariel:

Why you're not replying? Am I too clingy?

I sighed after reading Zachariel's previous messages. Ilang araw na rin kaming hindi nagkikita dahil abala rin ako sa mga ginagawa sa school newspaper at meetings na kailangan daluhan. I decided to avoid him. I need to stop this feelings as early as possible. I can still control it. The pain of ignoring him is still bearable. Ayaw kong dumating ang araw na itong nararamdaman ko ang tuluyang kumontrol sa akin.

I don't want to hurt Severine.

Napapitlag ako nang makakuha ng panibagong text sa kanya. I secretly opened my phone again and as expected, it was him. Tumingin muna ako saglit sa speaker na nasa harapan at baka mahuli akong gumagamit ng cellphone.

Zachariel:

Nasa school ka ngayon 'di ba? Can we talk? My training will end at 12. How about you?

Natigilan ako sa nabasa.

Something popped in my head as I read it. I think it's better if I tell him today about my answer if I'll accept him as my suitor. That's right, Azariah. Tamang oras na para itigil lahat ng kung anong mayroon sa inyo. You should reject him. Applicable reason iyon para hindi na kami mag-usap.

Ako:

Okay.

Wala pang sampung segundo nang makakuha ako ng mensahe pabalik! He's in training, right? How can he reply this fast?

Zachariel:

Anong oras matatapos meeting niyo?

Ako:

11.

Zachariel:

I'll just ask my seniors if I could go early so you don't have to wait for me.

Ako:

Ayoko ng may naaabala. Maghihintay na lang ako.

Zachariel:

Okay, I'm sorry if you have to wait.

Why are you so cold? Did I do something?

Hindi na muli ako nagtipa ng reply sa message niya. I can feel that he's hurt by the way I'm acting towards him. I'm really guilty for treating him like this. He doesn't deserve it, but what should I suppose to do? Masasaktan ko si Eve kung pagpapatuloy namin ito.

Hindi nawala ang kaba ko hanggang sa matapos ang meeting namin ng eleven o'clock. Hanggang ngayon, hindi pa rin ako kinakausap ni Rexine kaya mag-isa akong nag-ayos ng mga upuan sa aming mesa. I tried to start a conversation to say my apology but she ignored me. She's with her news writer friends the whole time so we didn't have the chance to talk again.

Hindi ko na ipipilit pa dahil darating din pala ako sa punto na mapapagod akong ipagsiksikan ang sarili sa mga tao. I think after Roscoe told me that I was still a person who needs to understand, I felt my limit. No one will understand anyway no matter how explain myself. Kahit magsalita ako, I will remained unheard for a person who is committed to close his or her ears to me.