The Boys Oneshots Part 2

Why Me?

One thing I'll never truly understand is , why would they choose me? You could have gotten anyone you could ever dream of but you chose me? Don't get me wrong , I'm beyond grateful to be yours but I can't help but wonder. Whats so good about me that made you think "Oh I love him"? You look at me and tell me I'm cute but when I see myself I want to break the mirror and cry. You talk about how much you love me but I can't seem to love myself.

You're my weakness but also the strongest part of me. You keep me from giving up and ended it all. If it weren't for you I don't think I'd still be here. The only reason I can force myself out of bed is you. I try to better myself just so I can someday hold you in my arms. I'm sorry that I can be an asshole or if I'm too clingy. I do get jealous even though I shouldn't be. You tell me all the time that you won't leave but I'm still scared. Scared I might fuck up and make you hate me. Scared that one day I won't be enough for you anymore. I love you , I really do. I try so hard to feel good about myself but there's always going to be that part of my mind that wonders "What if I never found them?" Would I be who I am now? Would I spend each day laying in bed waiting for the inevitable to happen?

It really hurts but you seem to make it all go away. I could be crying my eyes out but just seeing your messages pop up on my screen fills the little holes of my heart. I'm still in udder shock that you decided I was good enough for you. I may not be the best with words and telling you how much I love and care for you but I try. I try so hard.

I love you so much. ilikefriesz ❤️