The Boys Oneshots Part 2

Its Over Mate (NxJ)

This is basically a part two for He's Gone so if you haven't read it go do it because I'm really proud of it. ⚠️Grieving process, suicidal thoughts and actions, depression, anxiety are mentioned here so please if it effects you in any way don't read it.⚠️

Josh's POV

Blade in one hand and phone in the other. My vision is blurry, all I can see is the old texts I had pulled up between Mully and I. This is your fault.
You could have stopped him.
Piece of shit!

Sliding the sharp blade across my wrist while biting my hoodie sleeve to keep myself from screaming. The blood dripping down onto my thighs. I still hear his voice too, sometimes it's all I hear. Especially when I'm alone in my room. That's when they get louder to the point I can't even use music to block them out. My arms and thighs covered in cuts, slowly I stand up and take wobbly steps to my bathroom. Why do you do that? All because I'm not there? You're weak.

Carefully washing then wrapping my cuts. Wincing in pain before putting on sweatpants. I've been wearing his hoodie for weeks now. It still smells like him too. He always smells like warm vanilla and pine even if he had been sweating. Walking to the living room I sit on the couch and clutch my phone close to me. It feels wrong to sit here and not have his arms wrapped around me or to not be sitting in his lap. I'm guessing Gaege was down here because he left the damn TV on. Eddie comes out of his room and smiles at me "Hey Josh. Good to see you out of your room." I gave a small, weak smile "You hungry? I'm making lunch soon."

"No thanks Eddie. I'm not hungry." A slightly frown formed on his face as he kneeled in front of me. "I know it's been really hard for you since Mully passed and it's been hard on us too. We all are here for each other no matter what." His hand laying on my thigh and I wince in pain. A look of surprise and fear washed over his face. "Did you..." I thought I didn't have any tears left to cry but I was very wrong. Clinging to Eddie tight as I cried into his chest. Rubbing my back he let me hold on and ran his fingers through my hair. "M-Mully used to d-do that when I was o-overwhelmed" soon after I had calmed down he let me sit in his lap. "You know how much he loved you right? You're practically all he talked about." Putting my hood up and it was like I felt him hugging me again. "I was supposed to hide this until your birthday but I think you need it right now." He pulls out a small box and hands it to me. "Wh-What is it?" "Just open it hun" inside was a small necklace with a locket. Carefully opening the heart shaped locket brought me to tears again. A picture of Mully first moved in with us.

~Flash back to when Mully first moved in~

Mullys POV

Walking into the house I look around trying to see if anyone was out of their rooms. A man with jet black hair and glasses was sitting on the couch with another guy. He had tattoos up his arm and blonde hair. They both looked pretty chill so I put my box on the table before introducing myself. "Hi I'm Mully! I'm going to be your new roommate." They both smiled and stood up to hug me. "Nice to meet you Mully! I'm Eddie and this is Narrator but we just call him Grant." The black haired man said sounding excited. Grant nodded and shook my hand. They both showed me around, introducing me to Gaege then Josh, even though I didn't need a real introduction to him. We'd been friends since middle school. I hadn't seen him in a while and it felt great to finally look at his face. Josh still had the same absolutely gorgeous blue eyes that seemed to glow in the sunlight. Seeing him one more time I was head over heels. Gaege is cool too, he play guitar and has a fuck ton of tattoos.

After I got my room situated Josh came in and gave me a little run through of how the house works, routines and who does which chores. I don't think I really paid attention to any of it though. I was too busy looking into his sky blue eyes. Before he left my room he blew me a kiss and winked affectively making me blush dark red.

      ~End of Flashback~

Josh's POV

Eddie helps me put on the necklace and continues to hold me in his lap. "Thank you Eddie. So much. You have no idea how much this means to me." He smiles softly and kisses my forehead. "I just know that he'd do the same thing. He would risk his life for any of us. Even Gaeges dumbass. Like when he ate the cookies we clearly labeled do not eat since they had peanuts in them but still ate them. Mully ran around the entire house looking for that Epi-pen. God I miss him."

Wrapping a blanket around us both as we trade funny stories and memories we have of Mully. It honestly helped a lot more than any of my therapy sessions ever did. I would leave a session feeling like shit but for the first time in a while I feel calm and safe. I'm so lucky to have these guys with me. "You remember when Mully got into a fight with an old man at the air port and we almost didn't make it on the plane?" Both of us laughing until we could barely breathe. Eddie had a face of pure excitement realizing I had laughed. I don't think I've even smiled since he passed so this is a huge step. He hugged me tighter while we kept telling our stories. It felt as if Mull was right there with us. My eyes started to get heavy but I fought falling asleep. I love this feeling and I don't want to end it now. "You look sleepy hun. Do you want to take a nap?" Shaking my head slightly and holding onto him. He chuckles softly and ran his fingers through my hair. "How about if I cuddle you to sleep? You can wear one of his hoodies and I'll play your song." My eyes lit up and stood up. "Go lay down and I'll grab my speaker."

Sleepily walking to my bedroom and plopping down on the bed, clearing off a space for Eddie to lay down. I held Mullys blanket close to my chest, breathing in deeply. It still smells like him. Soon enough Eddie puts the speaker on the other side of the room then lays next to me. Dandelions by Ruth B came on which immediately brought back memories of us dancing to this song. He laid down carefully then pulled me close to him. None of these boys are afraid of cuddling each other which makes everything even better. I'm little spoon obviously as he wraps his arms around me. Covering us with Mullys blanket my eyes start to close. Eddie hums softly which puts me to sleep almost immediately. Even as I sleep he stays next to me. Not wanting to leave me, ever since he moved in he's been the one other than Mully to be the most protective over me.

Did I zone out while writing this and make a whole scenario where he actually died then sent myself into a panic attack?

Yes. Yes I did.

Am I going to continue writing sad shit because it's the only way for me to be able to get this shit out of me?

Definitely.

Love y'all ❤️❤️❤️