Master turned Soft

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Everything was fine at first. Enjoyable almost. But then for some reason, my brain said now is the perfect time for me to start panicking. And so that's what I did.

At first it was just my arms. I didn't like that I couldn't use them so I tugged on the restraints, then it was my sight. I couldn't see and I wasn't aware of my surroundings. The dark becoming scarier and scarier. Then the vibrations the vibrator sent through my body. Everything was too much all at once.

"Julian?" I called out, which got no response. My brain was fuzzy and I could feel my heart beat start to race a little. "Wait stop." Which also earned me no response. I was alone in the room which made it 10x worse. "Please stop. I don't want to do this anymore." I couldn't remember my safe words. I was just thinking about how I was alone, and that there was too much stimulation to my body for me to handle. "Julian I can't remember my safe word please get me out of these. Please! Julian! Julian!" I tugged at the cuffs and moved around the bed. "Julian!"

"Hey hey" I jumped when I felt his touch. The first thing removed was the vibrator. "Stop moving, I can't get the cuffs undone when you're struggling" He pulled the blindfold down and looked at me, "Calm down for a moment. I'll undo them."

I nodded and he undid the latches as fast as he could. I felt relief almost immediately but also felt the tears escape my eyes.

"I couldn't- I'm sorry. I just" i couldn't form a proper sentence apparently so I just looked at him, "I'm sorry."

"Why are you sorry?" he looked confused.

"I couldn't remember my safe word."

"It's okay. I shouldn't have left the room. I was just down the hall standing. i'm sorry." He apologized.

"It was too much."

"Okay" he nodded and gave me a smile, "I'm sorry. I shouldn't have done so much so fast. And I shouldn't have left you alone while it was happening"

"I'm sorry" I sighed and wiped my face.

"It's okay baby, you did nothing wrong" He caressed my cheek. "Come here. Let me hold you."

I crawled into his lap and he fixed me so I was straddling him. I closed my eyes and laid my head on his shoulder.

"My pretty girl" he rubbed my back and whispered sweet nothings in my ear. He rocked back and forth and I could feel myself getting tired so I opened my eyes to try and not fall asleep. I tried to lift my head but he put it back down and scratched my scalp softly. At that point fighting sleep was basically impossible.

***

When I woke up, I was still tangled up in Julian's arms.
"Are you sleeping" I asked softly. I didn't get a reply so I untangled myself as best I could and went to get up. I was pulled back into him. "Sir I gotta potty."

I knew my little side was just one minor mishap away from coming out.

"Gimme kiss" He mumbled, his voice husky from sleep. I leaned over and gave him a kiss before getting up and going to the bathroom.

When I came back, his arm was still outstretched for me. I climbed in bed, careful of my cast, and laid my head on his chest.
"Mmm, my baby" He wrapped both arms around me, snuggling me as close to him as he could.

"My sir"

He chuckled and kissed my head, "Baby"

"Hmm" I hummed as a reply.

"I can tell you're not in subspace"

"Nooo, I am" I argued.

"Nooo, you aren't" He let go some so he could see my face, "My pretty baby girl."

"Stop it" I whined.

"You're allowed to be little"

"You don't like littles"

"I thought we discussed this already" He sighed. "I like you. That being said, I also like little you. I'm sorry I was an asshole before when you were still with fuck face, but I'm being serious. If you need to be little to feel better, I'm never ever ever ever going to stop you."

"You said a bad word twice."

He just laughed.
"My sincerest apologies, angel"

"I like when you call me names" I smiled.

He smiled, "Oh yeah? What's your favorite?"

"Well, pet. I like it because of the way you say it" I smiled and played with his growing out beard, "But I like baby girl too, oh and princess because I am one. Duh."

"Right, of course" He agreed. "What are you doin?"

"Straightening your hairs" I was tugging on his beard hair to see how long it was. "It's hard to do when you talk"

"Is that your way of telling me to shut up?" He laughed. I nodded without really hearing him, then it clicked and I shook my head super fast. He just laughed louder. "wowwww"

"No I didn't mean it. I didn't hear you at first" I giggled.

"Nope, you've done it now" He started tickling me.

"No daddy stop" I giggled and scooted away from him, nearly falling off the bed in the process. But luckily he was very observant and pulled me by my ankle back to the center. He hovered over me. "Hi"

"Hi" He smiled and leaned down to give me a kiss. "Sweet baby. Come on, let's get food. I'm starving."

"Can I have a piggy back ride?"

"It'll cost ya"

"How much?"

"Two kisses"

I leaned up and met his mouth, "one." I pecked his lips. "Two" I did it again.

"All aboard" He got up and sat on the edge of the bed. I put myself behind him and off we went.