Master turned Soft

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Kendall's POV-

We spent all day at the beach. My back was burning. I couldn't reach well enough to put sunblock on.

"Red as a tomato" Shelly said. "Here I've got some aloe. Let me put some on you"

I sighed as she rubbed the cool gel on my back.
"Thank you"

"Of course- hey! Do not ruin my couches down there!" She yelled as the men raced to the game room.

I chuckled and followed them.

"I'm glad you had fun, baby" chase kissed Noah's head. "Kendall, we are teaching you how to swim this summer."

I nodded and offered him a small smile. I saw Noah whisper something to chase, who just shook his head and sighed in response.

Julien was setting up the game.

"Hey.. sir, can you braid my hair?" I asked softly.

"Later." He said, not even looking at me.

I sighed softly, "I should go change." I nearly whispered. I wasn't sure how to even begin to make it better if he wouldn't even talk to me.

I made my way up the two flights of stairs and into the room. I changed into some joggers and a loose crop top. I brushed my hair out and attempted to braid it. It wasn't that bad just not as tight as Julien does it.

I rubbed my eyes as I felt the tears well up. I can't cry. It's my own doing.

I cleared my throat a little and sighed before heading back down the game room.

"-fuck yeah!" Julien shouted.

"You totally screen cheated." Chase laughed.

"Sore loser"

I sat on the couch and just watched.

"There's some lunch up here if anyone is hungry!" Shelly yelled down. The guys got up and headed upstairs. I stayed put. I wasn't hungry at all.

My stomach was in knots.

I grabbed the throw blanket and laid it over me. They all shuffled back down the stairs.

"Kendall, there's sandwiches." Noah said with a mouth full.

"I'm not hungry"

"Wanna bite?" He offered.

"No thank you" I smiled.

My leg was tapped and Julien held out half his sandwich to me. I shook my head. He did say anything and just kept his hand extended towards me. He wasn't even looking at me, he was focused on the screen.

I took the sandwich just to make him happy. I honestly think if I took a bite I would throw up. So I just kind of .. held it.

I tore off a tiny bit of the meat and ate it. When that made me nauseous, I tapped Julien and held out the sandwich.

"I'm really not hungry" I said softly.

He took it and sighed loudly.

Whelp. Guess that didn't help my case.

I wanted to lay on him like Noah was laying on Chase. I wanted him to want to cuddle me. I wanted him to tell me he loved me. And enjoy spending time with me again. I know I was a brat but..

I didn't notice I was crying while staring at Chase until I noticed Noah looking at me. I lowered my gaze and just stared at my hands.

"Come on"

I looked up and Chase had his hand out for me.
I shook my head.

"Come on, for real. Let's go for a walk real quick."

I grabbed his hand and he lead me up the stairs and outside. Once I was away from everyone else, I nearly choked on my sobs.

"I'm sorry" I said trying to stop.

"You're okay. Take a minute for yourself." He said. I tried to catch my breath but I was struggling. "Just breathe. I'm not judging. You have the right to be upset. Listen, you didn't do enough to gain this treatment. The punishment is not fitting the crime. Look at me,"

I uncovered my eyes and blinked the tears away so I could see him.

"You were a brat. I agree that you deserved a punishment. But this doesn't fit." He pulled me in for a hug.

"I'm sorry" I said as I broke out into another fit of sobs.

"It's okay. Take a minute. I'll stand here until you're ready to go back in"

I nodded and caught my breath. We stood for another few minutes before I pulled away and wiped my face.

"Better?"

I nodded.

"Alright. Come on"

We walked back in together and headed downstairs.

I twisted my hands together and looked at Julien. Who couldn't see me as I was behind him.

"Red." I said. I have never used the red safe word. I'm not sure if he didn't hear me or if he didn't understand, because he didn't move. So I said it louder.. "Red."

He whipped around to face me. Chase grabbed Noah's hand and headed upstairs with him.

I just kinda stood there. Tears rolled down my cheeks, my fingers twisted themselves almost painfully, and I chewed my lips.

Julien got up and came over to me.

"I'm sorry" I said, letting Niagara Falls start on my face all over again. "I didn't mean to push too far. I'm really sorry."

"Shh" he said grabbing my hands and separating them, "stop, you're hurting yourself."

"I a-"

"Shh" he said again. "Im sorry. I went too far. Not you. I knew I was being an ass. But you didn't seem effected by it that much. So I pushed further. Im sorry. I never ever wanted to push you to the point of safewording. Ever."

"I don't like it. When you ignore me. Or brush me off. And you... it's so mean. And," I couldn't really form a sentence.

"Im sorry, baby." He caressed my cheeks. "I didn't know until you were crying just how upset you were."

"-and last night you didn't give me much room on the bed. And then you didn't put sunblock on me today. And," I cried. "And you won't touch me."

He pulled me closer so he could hug me.
"Im so sorry baby."

"I'll be better." I said softly. "I don't want you to leave me."

"Im not leaving you. Ever." He pulled away and tilted my head up, "ever. Got it?"

"Im sorry."

He bent down and kissed me softly.
"Shh."

I sniffled. He used his shirt to wipe my face off.

"Come here." He picked me up and I wrapped my arms and legs around him. He sat on the couch and put the blanket over us.

"Can I put this on my hard limits?" I asked quietly.

"Absolutely."

"Okay." I let my body relax against him.