DANDELION (Completed)

KABANATA 30

"You deceiving asshole!"

Nagpumiglas ako nang buhatin niya ako paupo sa sink at ipinirmi doon. Basang-basa pa ang katawan ko at hubad na hubad!

"May balak ka na naman ba? Huh? Don't you even dare fucking me here inside my fucking bathroom!" I gritted my teeth and tried to get down.

He hardly grip on my thighs and parting it wide for him to stand in my between. The cold air inside my bathroom is making me shudder. Lalo pa at parang hinihipan ng malamig na hangin ang nakabalandrang parte ko.

I glared at him when he held my both wrist with his one palm and tucked my damp hair off my face. Hinawi niya ang ilang basang buhok na tumatabing sa mukha ko para mas makita ako ng maayos. But I am glaring him and he's ignoring!

"Ayaw mong makipag-usap ng maayos kaya kailangan ko na namang gawin ito."

"I really hate you so much." Diin ko at iniwasan ang hawak niya.

"So you really don't like me anymore, huh?"

"Ano sa tingin mo?"

"Why? Because you love someone else now? Someone new who just tasted your lips? Someone new who touched your skin? Someone new has owned you already huh?"

"Oo, kung 'yon ang tingin mo." Ngising sagot ko sa mga sinabi niya at sumandal sa salaming nasa likod ko. Pero mas nairita ako nang ngisihan niya ako pabalik at humahagod na pababa sa puson ko ang isang palad.

"So I won't believe it then."

"I don't care. Basta wala ka ng karapatan pang magselos at tanungin ang mga bagay-bagay na ginagawa ko ngayon!"

"Why not? You're still bound to marry me, Dandelion."

"Alam kong hindi na!"

"Sa akin ka pa rin." Mas bumagsik ang titig niya at dumilim. Napaawang ang labi ko nang dumapo ang palad niya sa kaliwang dibdib ko at mabagal na humuhulma. Nagpumiglas ako lalo.

"Stop!"

"Bawiin mo pa ang mga sinabi mo." ngising aniya bago bumaba ang mukha at sinakop ang dibdib ko gamit ang bunganga at nanunuksong dumila pa habang nakatingala sa akin.

Halos mapapikit na ako sa inis, galit at sarap dahil sa ginagawa niya. Napasinghap na ako nang sipsipin niya ng mariin at salitang dumidila at kumakagat sa nanayong nipples ko. He never failed to arouse me this fast... tame me!

"Fuck you! I told you, I don't love you anymore, Halseth! I don't want to marry you and I don't want to be with you now! I regretted forcing this marriage to you! I shouldn't have done it in the first place. I ruined everything! I ruined my family! You don't know how heavy to take all of these burdens with me!"

"You don't regretted loving me, do you?"

"I do! I almost do!"

"Hindi ako naniniwala. You're just saying that because you're hurting. You don't need someone to talk to because I'm always here, Dandelion. You know I'm always here for you. Why rely on someone else huh? Fuck. It fucking hurts too. So please let's talk it all out tomorrow and clear your mind..."

"I don't want to,"

"Yes, baby-"

Pero sunod siyang napapikit ng mariin sa ginawa ko. Maski ako ay nagulat sa ginawa at nagsisising pinanood ang pagdausdos ng dura ko sa mukha niya. Nang magmulat siya ay sumalubong sa akin ang nandidilim na mga mata at mariing nakatitig. Nilunok ko ang bara sa lalamunan at tinapatan ang titig niya.

"H-Hate me now..." I managed to give him a mocking grin and provoked him more. "I just spit on your face, Halseth. I'm such a bad bitch, right? Such a selfish bitch who always get what she wants even if it means I'm hurting someone because of my sick attitude. Magsasawa ka rin sa akin at hindi mo matatagalan ang ugali ko. Magiging pabigat lang ako sayo kapag pinagpatuloy mo ang kasal na 'to. I don't deserve to be loved. I don't deserve to be taken care of. I deserve to be alone and suffer. I deserve no one, Halseth. Even you..."