Forever and Always

Chapter 26: Posibilities

"Jake I swear to you, I'm getting fat," I paced around my cage.

"They barely feed you, Kitten, I don't see how your body could pack on so much. Not that you're fat or anything, you just don't look very skinny," we have been having this fight for the last couple days. It has been 33 days since I left Devin. I should be feeling like my soul is ripping apart, but all I feel is sick, sick and fat. I walked to the corner of the cage and proceeded to throw up all over the concrete floor.

"I don't know how to explain it... I just... feel..... strange... And I don't even feel like I'm dying.. I feel like my Mate is still here... Close.. It's strange.." laying my hands on my stomach, I sat down. It was nice to be able to talk again, Kyle had just taken my stitches out about 4 days ago and the wounds were already almost healed. I was put into that cage every day since I got here, I was the main attraction. It's sickening. I missed Devin deeply, but thats all there was, an emptiness. I'm not dieing. I should be.

"Maybe this is because of the distance between you and your Mate, your body could be fighting against it," playing with his hands, he looked at me with sorrow already in his eyes.

"No. I don't think that's it. I don't feel like I'm dying... I actually feel more alive than I ever have," it was true, I honestly felt like I could fly. Not in a happy way, just in a I'm not going to die way.

"It could be the stages before you..." he couldn't finish his sentence.

"It could be..." I hadn't thought about that. It just made want to puke again. Sitting by the cage, he laid his hand against mine, "I thought I was ready to die.. but.. It scares me.. I'm terrified.."

"I know Kitten, I know. I would think there was something wrong with you if you weren't," he gave me a reassuring smile.

"There is something wrong with me.. I came back.." closing my eyes, I just wanted it to end, if it was going to happen, I wanted it to end now.

"There isn't anything wrong with you. No, it probably wasn't the best decision but you did it to save your Mate. there isn't anything wrong with you.." squeezing my hand, he smiled at me.

"It could not be me dieing..." it was a hopeless thought, of course I was dying, that's what I came here to do.

"The only other thing I can think of is.... No, thats not possible," ending in a chuckle, he was kidding of course.

"What? What do you think?" I was eager to hear anything that wasn't about my death.

"Well... I was thinking that... Maybe you're...... pregnant... But that wouldn't make sense cause you shouldn't be showing this early," he looked over at me and shrugged.

"No... M-maybe you're right...." I looked at my growing belly, maybe there is a child in there, my Mate's child. Maybe thats why the distance isn't hurting me. Maybe this child is what is keeping me alive, because it is Devin's. Maybe that's how it works. I don't know.... I was never told about any of this.

"How could I be right? You shouldn't be showing this much until you're like, 3 months in," what is he talking about?

"How long do you think I'm supposed to be pregnant for?"

"9 months, like everyone else," I busted out laughing, he must be joking, "Whats so funny? Is that not right?"

"For humans yes," I said as I calmed down, "but I'm a cat, I don't think I would survive 9 months of pregnancy, those chicks are crazy. No, Kats, like normal cats, are only pregnant for about 66 days," if I am pregnant.. that would mean I'm about halfway through.

"So you could be pregnant, thats great!" he seemed so happy, but there was one problem.

"I wouldn't say great..." protectively wrapping my arms around my stomach, I leaned against the bars.

"How isn't it? If you're pregnant, then you won't die," his excitement was starting to get to me.

"Look around you Jake, does this look like a place where a baby should be born? And on top of that, who knows what species he will turn out to be! He won't be able to protect himself, and then what? Kyle is just going to take him away from me, I can't do that to my own child.." tears ran down my cheeks, one after the other, as I protectively wrapped my arms around my stomach.

His smile feel, I felt bad for ruining his good mood, but I had to put this into perspective for him. "We can't let Kyle find out, it's too much of a risk."

"How is he not going to find out? I'm already showing, if that is even what this is," to be honest, I would rather be dieing that allow my child be in the hands of Kyle.

Sitting here, we were both centered around the same thoughts, but our reactions were different. I was simply freaking out about the whole ordeal, but Jake, Jake was thinking, about what, I was soon to find out.

"Okay, either you are dieing, or you are pregnant, or something else is happening," there was tension in his voice as he continued, "if you are pregnant, you're right, we can't let Kyle find out. He'll use the poor thing against you or worse, he'll just use the baby," the disgust was evident in his voice and his body movement. "We have to get you away from everyone for the next month, if you are not pregnant, then it was a false alarm and you can go back to...." he wouldn't finish, he couldn't.

"What do you suppose we do?" trying to get his mind of the terrible topic.

"Well, I was thinking, do you remember the first year you were here? And you had that horrible planned escape play?" I nodded, the memory brought a smile to my lips, those were such simple times. "You were put in the dungeon for a month and a half, weren't you?"

It all started to form in my mind as well. That would be the perfect place. No one went in the dungeon unless in trouble and Jake would probably go down there and.. It was perfect.