Forever and Always

CHAPTER 5: Yes

CHAPTER 5: Yes

That first night I did break down and text Devin, and it went better than expected. He was simply concerned for me and how I was feeling and if i was coming back the next day. It was really cute actually. Yeah yeah I know, I'm thinking like that again, it has actually been happening more and more often lately and I've just come to expect it. It has been around a month and a half now and me and him have become really good friends. Like, extremely close. Its kinda weird knowing that hes my mate and everything, but i try not to think about it too much, although, late at night, when he finally falls asleep and stops texting me and i have nothing else to do, I think about what it would be like if we did spend the rest of our lives together, its a very happy thought. But first he has to like me back, because whether I will die or not, I don't want to push him into it, that would just make everything worse.

"What you thinking about?" the blond haired boy asks from beside me.

"What?" i ask innocently, "I wasn't thinking about anything."

"Yes you were," he says looking at me with those beautiful eyes, "you were biting your lip, therefore, you were thinking. Now, what were you thinking about?"

"Just the future," I say truthfully, I was not going to tell him what exactly about the future I was thinking about. I smile at him, I seem to be smiling a lot around him, its a good feeling. The lunch room is overly loud, as always, and it was starting to really hurt my head, so i gently lay it down on the cool table, trying to block out the noise. After a couple of seconds, I feel a soft but warm hand run down the middle of my back. By the sparks flowing through my body, I could guess who it was.

"Are you feeling ok?" he asks, concern clear in his voice.

"I'm fine, I just have a bit of a headache," I say tilting my head to the side so I can look at him.

"Oh, I'm sorry," he says right on cue. Saying I'm sorry is like a catch phrase for him.

"Its alright," I say reassuringly.

"Still," his stubborn streak shows through once again. I sigh and just close my eyes, strangely finding comfort in his touch. This goes on until the shrill of the bell makes me jump into a sitting position as a light noise escapes me. This causes Devin to laugh, as it always does, as we start to walk out of the cafeteria.

Just as we are about to enter the class, he pulls me lightly to the side so that I am looking at him. The halls are slowly thinning at this point and the bell is about to ring. I just look at him, waiting for him to speak or let me go. He seems to want to do the earlier of the two as he slowly opens his mouth, but shuts it again all the same. I tilt my head lightly to the side waiting for him to at least make a sound. Thats when he finally speaks.

"Do you want to come over to my house after school today?" he asks in a rush. I just smile.

"Of course," I say lightly as he lets out a sigh, "just meet me in the parking lot and we can go."

"Ok," he answers with a big smile on his beautiful face. A couple of seconds later the bell rang making me jump and, like always, let out a slight squeak. Devin then puts his hands on both of my shoulders and looks right at me with a serious look now hardening his features, "there is no need to be scared, I'll always be here to protect you," letting go of my shoulders, he turns and walks into the classroom like nothing ever happened. I follow in his footsteps wondering how the hell I'm going to be able to keep breathing around this boy.

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After school I go out to my car and lean up against the drivers side door and wait. Jake and his friends are going out again tonight so i don't have to bring him home. It's just going to be me and Devin, at least until we get to his house, i don't know who will be there when we get there. I look down at the phone in my hand to check the time, it has been about 10 minutes already, where could he be?

I start to get slightly anxious for some reason. If he doesn't come, he doesn't come, right? My eyes scan the lot for about the 10th time in the last minute, then they fall on a hooded figure walking towards the car. A light smile spreads across my face at the sight of him, I don't need to see his face to know exactly who it is. I unlock the doors as he gets closer letting out a breath that i didn't know i was holding.

He looks up at me. Though his face is still cast in shadow, i can still see the light smile tugging at the corners of his dark red lips. He moves to the other side of the car and gets in the passenger's seat as i slide into the driver's side. We pull out of the parking lot and Devin starts giving me directions to his house. That was the most of our conversation until we reached his house. He got out first and i bent down for a second to grab my purse and when i sit back up he's standing on the drivers side with the door open smiling down at me. Wow he moves fast, I think to myself as i step out of the car saying a quick thank you.

We walk up to his house and i start lightly shaking, i'm nervous, i haven't been with many other people alone and, god forbid, his family is home, I haven't met another family in a long time. Once we step over the threshold he takes off his leather gloves and i feel as his hand slowly slips into mine, his fingers fitting perfectly into the spaces between mine.

"There is nothing to be afraid of, I told you before that I don't bite... well... at least not hard" he ends with a smile and i can't help but smile back. He gently guides me to a door that leads to a flight of stairs that go down to a basement. Its extremely dark and he waits until this time to let his hood fall off of his head. Me being me i have to trip on one of the stairs and start to fall, but he catches me in his arms and my breathing starts to increase at the closeness of our two bodies.

"Careful now," he says gently, "we don't want you hurt now do we?" he sets me down once we are at the bottom of the stares and I just sit there like an idiot nodding my head slightly. "You worry me sometimes, you're always falling aren't you?" I start playing with my hands as my head automatically drops to the floor.

"Yeah, sorry," i say quietly.

He walks over to me and cups my chin making me look at him, "you aren't very dominant, are you?" he asks and i just shrug.

"Not really," i say in all honesty. Its true that I'm more submissive, thats why when i'm a cat, I'm white. I'm also extremely masochistic, but i'm not going to tell him that. He smiles and gently places his lips on my forehead. I feel the heat run up my face at the contact and my head drops once again. He laughs lightly and pulls me over to his bed and I sit on the edge of it. He sits on the bed right beside me, if i moved my hand just a little bit I could touch him. Apparently he had the same idea because just then i feel his hand slip slowly into mine. I glanced down at our joined hands and smiled, they fit perfectly together, and he's so warm.

His other hand slipped its way under my chin and lifted my head up so that I was looking right into his eyes. My heart beat increased as i slowly got lost in the depth of his dark blue eyes and I really hope he couldn't hear it. He looked conflicted, like he wanted to tell me something but didn't know how. His lips opened and closed a couple of times and i wait for sound to come out of them. He lets out a long sigh, one side finally winning out in the war raging in his eyes.

"Kitty?" he asks hesitantly letting his hand drop from my chin.

"Yes?" I say, I'm a little nervous right now.

He sighs looking away from my eyes, "will you go out with me?" he says in a rush.

"What?" I ask stupidly, not knowing if I had heard him right.

"Will you go out with me?" he says more slowly looking back up at me nervously.

"OH MY GOD!! YESYESYESYESYESYESYES!!!!!!" I say, or scream, wrapping my arms around his neck and hugging him tightly. He let out a relieved breath and slipped his hands around my waist and hugs me back just as tightly. We both pull back and look into each other's eyes, my hands resting on the back of his neck and his hands lightly placed on my hips.

The longing was evident as his gaze dropped from mine, to my lips and back. Closing the gap ever so slightly, we both move as if there is a magnet pulling us together and before I know it, his lips are right in front of mine, but not touching mine, as his warm breath moves across my skin. Then he closes the distance.