Forever and Always

Chapter 24: Silence

"You do know that if Devin ever found out..." I interrupted him.

"He is not going to find out because you are not going to tell him," sitting down I gave him a stern look.

"Okay, okay. I won't tell him, but why in the world would you want to go back there?" he sat next to me.

"You wouldn't understand," putting my head in my hands, I sighed.

"Try me," putting his hand on my back, he just looked at me.

"This is for his own good, this is to save his life. I will not be the reason he dies, I will not........ And plus, I won't suffer long......." he stiffened.

"What exactly are you planning?"

"I.... I'm going to tell Kyle that Devin is dead... Then he'll just take me back... He wants me... And if he doesn't... I'll just come back.... But if I do stay.... After exactly 3 months of being away from Devin I'll....." I couldn't finish the sentence. I knew I had to do this, but putting it into words was not something I had the willpower to do.

"Oh Kitty," shockingly, he hugged me. I became rigid at first contact, but soon I leaned into him.

"You really do love my brother, don't you?" petting my hair, he looked down at me.

"I do," and that will never change, even in death.

"Okay.. I'll help you," I jumped up.

"Really?" I was excited and deathly frightened at the same time.

"Yes.... But we need to wait until night," simply nodding, I took a deep breath. Well, no turning back now.

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The sun was starting to fall behind the horizon as I leaned against the car. "You ready?" Dylan asked from the front seat. I nodded and slid into the passenger seat. "You know, I could just drive you home and we could forget all about this."

"Just drive..." it came out on a shaky breath, but he followed the direction anyways. I was shaking in my seat, I didn't want to go back. Even if I will die in a few months, the hell I was willingly walking into was, well, Hell.

Dylan looked over at me and gently laid his hand on top of mine, "You don't have to go through with this, you know that right? We can handle anything that Kyle throws at us."

"No, he'll send others to get me back, I was his pride and joy.. I refused him the day I ran away, and he will never stop until I am back with him. I hurt his pride, he thinks he can have anything he wants and that's not always the case," a sigh escaped me. I'm doing the right thing, I'm doing the right thing, I'm doing the right thing........ Am I?

Seeing that there was no way in deterring me from what I was about to do, he just simply drove on. I don't know how long we drove, the building blurred, turning to gray, then the gray turned to the green of trees, then the blue of the open sky, then back to green. I think I slept, I'm not sure. Dylan played a few CDs, I couldn't tell you the artists or the words to any individual song. Everything simply faded into my fear. All of a sudden I was that scared teenager again, wondering what kind of punishment would befall me the next time I didn't follow the rules to the letter.

Soon the woods started to thicken, bare branches reached out to grab at any living soul that dared pass. This was in, in just a little while I would see the stone wall of the my childhood prison. What was I doing, why was I putting myself back into this? Why would I do this. Tears started to roll down my cheeks, but I tried to hide them from Dylan. I have to, I have to, I have to. The words played again and again in my head. I have to. For Devin, for the love of my life. Thats why.