it was all just a scream for help.

you're okay.

word count : 1010
TW : disordered eating.
SAPNAP.
open the door, we need to talk to you.

I think for a second and leave him on opened, I hear continuous banging, it was the door. I groan and stand, I grab my hoodie and put it over my head as I run downstairs.
"Go." I mumble.

"Stop doing this to yourself George." Karl said,

"Doing what? I asked you all to leave,"

"George. Your distancing yourself from us. If that's what you want to do go ahead but who else do you have? You don't open up to anyone— you refuse to bloody speak to anyone!"

He shouted through the fly screen on the door, my face burnt red and I felt tears well up in my eyes. Sapnap sighed and looked away.

"George.. come on.. we will eat with you and then we will leave okay?" Dream said.

"I don't want to eat! Okay? I don't care how much you force it on me— I won't eat. I don't care if I look pale and sick. So leave already!" hot tears fell from my eyes.

"George... please.." Karl mumbled. The only one who wasn't at all frustrated by this. He seemed calm— undisturbed but definitely scared.

"Please what?" I notice Karl's eyes turn to glass. I look down. What have I done? I look back up to see Karl trying to make words.

"Please don't let me watch you die.." I look away. That one hurt. A lot.

"Georgie.. come on, we will leave when your Mum comes home," I don't know when she is coming home. But I don't want them here long.
I roll my eyes and unlock the door, I hesitantly open it, Karl hugs me tightly.

"You're okay, George." he pulls away, I wanted him to hug me longer. I felt so bad. Karl was the only one who I hadn't directly yelled at.

"Georgie? Have a preference for dinner?" Sapnap asked, I shook my head.

"Alright, someone go lay with him," I looked at Clay hesitantly. I don't know why he came. But it means we're okay, right? He made them come to my house to cook for me. He nodded and followed me as Karl walked into the kitchen to eat.

We went upstairs, he looked at my room, it was pretty messy, bowls of uneaten food sad on my desk. He rubbed my back,
"do you want to sleep? I think i'll clean a bit of this okay?" I shook my head. I wanted to sleep with him beside me.
"Lay with me.." he shook his head.
"Give me 20 minutes, alright?" I sigh and nod. "I'll help," he nods.

"Pass me that plate there?" he says, I look over and see a plate with rice that was starting to smell, I took the plate and handed it to him. "Thank you," I heard footsteps, Karl came in and smiled softly,
"George, we're making stir fry, noodle or rice?"
I knew which was healthier.
"Rice please," he hummed.

"Karl take some of these downstairs will you, just as many as you can hold. I'll wash them later," Dream says. I fold a hoodie over my chair and look up when Karl leaves with a few plates.

"Feel okay?" he asks me, I nod, he smiles and looks around to the clean room.
"Lay down now?" he nods and sits on the bed, we place our phones between us and I lay in his arms. My phone begins to explode after 20 minutes of notifications.

"Whose that? hm?" he asks picking up my phone, he sees my Mum's contact. He passes it to me. I open the phone.
George. you're behind in every class.
school has emailed me.
get it fixed and sort it out.
what's going on with you.
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There were screenshots of emails.

"Where is your laptop?" I shrug and throw my phone at the end of the bed. I cuddle into him. "George go get me your laptop," I whined and sat up to think of where he put my bag. I stood and noticed it was hanging behind the door. I reach in a took my laptop and handed it to Dream before falling back into his chest.

"You sleep," I didn't though I watched him log into my laptop and open due assignments in classroom. I whine and reach to shut the laptop.
"I said get some sleep, George. Let me do a bit of this hm?" I nod, digging my head into his side.

My eyes fluttered open and I was laying alone, Dream's phone still beside me, I reached to see the time, it was 6. I groan and get out of bed.  I drag my feet downstairs to see four laptops in front of the boys and Ana eating the stir fry Sapnap and Karl made.

"Hey Georgie," Sapnap stood and went to grab a dish from the kitchen, there were empty plates around the boys and Ana looks up from her phone. He sat the plate by Dream and sat back down, I sat in front of it.
"Thank you.." I mumble and look at Dream's laptop, mine was in the middle of the table so everyone could see. They were slowly completing all the work under my school profile. I look at them as they type away answers and essays.

"Thank you guys.." I said leaning on Dreams shoulder, he smiles at me and hums. He looks down at the food signalling me to start eating.
"You're okay.. just have a bit?" I nod and pick at the vegetables. I have a few bits of cooked carrots before leaning back into Dream. He didn't look away from the screen he ran a spare hand over my head, I lean into his hand.

I'm not straight. I've figured that out. I don't know what I am. No labels necessarily appeal to me. I don't want to label myself— restrict myself from falling in love. I'll love who I love

And I love Clay.