it was all just a scream for help.

long sleeves.

wordcount : 2235
TW : disordered eating (eating disorder), mention of self harm and exercise overexertion.

I rolled my sleeves back down as I hear my phone ring and shove the blade into the back of my bathroom drawer. I grabbed my phone to see Karl's contact, I answer without a second thought and I catch my breath. "We're downstairs with your Mum. Hurry up we brought dinner," they were sleeping over tonight. Dream as well. I hum and hang up and ran downstairs. I saw the boys talking to my Mum while Ana sat on her phone. "Hey," I said with a smile, Dream was wearing black trackies and a dark green hoodie. Karl and Sapnap were wearing the same sorta shade of colour red, most likely on purpose. And me? I was in plaid pyjama pants and au longsleeve grey tshirt.

"Sweetie we will be back on Monday before your home from school" she said, she hugs me tight and whispers, "text Ana congrats no matter how well she does," she pulled away happily. "The boys can stay as long as they want just keep the house clean as always and no shoes upstairs please," she hugs Sapnap and smiles at Karl and Dream. I hug Ana goodbye and she hugs Sapnap as well before leaving, with suitcases in her arms.

"Where are they going?" Dream asks as he helps Karl pour glasses of water and Sapnap and I open the boxes of pizza they brought. "Dance competition," I said after hitting Sapnap's hand away when he picked another topping off the pizza. "Your having that slice," I said laughing. Karl smiled up at us, so did Dream. "Gladly" he says, taking another piece of pepperoni off the slice of Pizza and eating it laughing. "I get to choose a movie tonight?" Karl asked, they took in turns usually watching heaps of shit before they fell asleep. "Let Dream, you can pick the second movie," I said as we approached the dining table. My mum hated the idea of anyone eating meals on the couch and Karl was a messy eater.

Karl laid into Sapnap's chest with the blanket over them two, Dream sat by them and I sat on the beanbag just under them, Karl had chosen some movie but was distracted by Sapnap's handing tracing his stomach. I had a slice of pizza for dinner, Sapnap nagged me but I told him I was going to throw up. They both seem to like Dream, I'm starting to enjoy his company, yesterday he was just there it was annoying me but Karl holds most conversations with him and he's pretty talkative now. "George you good?" Dream asks from behind me, I turn and look up at him, he look tired, I nod. "Tired?" I asked and he nodded. "Sap, Karl you guys can sleep in here or the spare room Dream and I are going to my room now," I put the tv down a bit and stand up, Dream does the same. "Night," I said to the boys and grabbed the blanket I had and threw it to Karl and Sapnap.

Dream followed shyly behind me, "I can sleep on the couch if you don't want to sleep in the same bed," he shook his head and look around. My room hadn't been decorated in a while, probably years, it had some LED lights around the the ceiling, just plain grey sheets, there was a tv and couch, my gaming set up on my desk and my ps4 attached to the TV with some beanbags on the floor. His backpack was thrown in the corner of the couch, "grab your toothbrush," I said as I throw my phone at the bed he put his phone in his pocket.

Karl and Sapnap came up to my bathroom before Dream and I went in, to brush their teeth, they were punching each other with their toothbrushes resting over their lips. They turn to us and I reach for the tooth paste and move in front of Sapnap and Karl, Dream holds his toothbrush under the tap and I turn it on and pass him the toothpaste and wet my own brush.

We laid on our backs staring at the ceiling. He looks at me and I turn to him laughing, he took his shirt off, he laughed and rested his arms on his stomach. He looked at my lips and back up to my eyes. I'm not gay. Maybe he was just glancing not looking. Maybe he is awkward. He smiles at me and I smile back, he rests his hand on my cheek and kisses me. It happened so fast. But I didn't pull away. I kissed him back and then he pulled away and smiling. My mouth fell open, just a little bit. His smile disappeared, "hey hey.. i'm sorry. I should have asked-" I sat up and turned to look at him, I notice the scars running up his arms and chest, he sits up and pulls his knees to his chest to hide.