Dare you to love me

Out in the open

Okay, so I have done an extra long chapter as I wanted to get their relationship going a little bit more in the next chapter. So far the haven;t exactly been seeing eye to eye.

I'm really enjoying writing this story, but it isn't getting alot of readers so I don't know how much longer I will be contining with it as people don't seem to want to read it and I'm getting no feedback.

Clarke POV

I wake before my alarm, I feel exhausted, unsure of what time I actually got to sleep. I still had my phone in my hand and unlocked it to check the actual time.

As I open it I see Lexa's message from last night and my harsh reply. I had to allow her to see that what she had done wasn't right and that she can't just treat people like they are toys.

I sigh and head over to my wardrobe. I decide on my unual type of outfit. I pick outLong sleeved thin green hollister jumper and some dark blue jeans.

As I go to take off my top I wince in pain and look down at another one of my regrets from last night. I knew what I had done was stupid and selfish. But it was the only way that I knew how to deal and cope with things when it all became too much.

I head to the bathroom and run my arm under the sink, softly scrubbing it to remove the dried blood and the bits of tissue that were still stuck to my skin.

Luckily the bleeding had stopped completely so I didn't need to bandage it up. I had decided last night that at training today I would wear the training kit and then just throw a training top from back home over the top of my shirt. It was the same colour as Polis highs gym kit so I couldn't see it being that much of a problem.

After sorting my arm out I try to sort my face out. God you look 30 Clarke! I think to myself about the huge black bags under my eyes and the tear stains on my cheeks. I grab a makeup wipe and rub away the evidence of hurt from my face. Makeup can hide the pain but it can't heal it.

I hear my phone bleep and iI head back over to the bed glancing at it. It's a message from Octavia.

Octavia: Hey I'll pick you up this morning. Don't want to wasting energy before your first training session tonight.

Clarke: You don't have to do that, it's only a 20 minute walk.

Octavia: Don't argue with me, woman. Send me your address and I'll be there at 8.

I type my address to her and continue to get dressed. I honestly didn't mind walking but I didn't want to appear rude and lose one of the only two friends that I now had.

Just like she said, Octavia pulled up onto the front and 8 beeping her horm to make sure that I knew she was there. Raven was also sitting in the back of the car.I smiled to myself realizing that she had been kind enough to allow me to ride in the front. These are the types of friends that I need in my life. I think to myself before jumping into the car.

"Are you nervous about training today?" Raven asks from the back seat. I look at her through the rear view mirror.

"Not really" I lied. "I've trained loads of times before back home so I should be fine" This was true I had trained and played before but I had never had a soul killing crush on the team captain who just happened to break me into pieces last night.

"Look, we heard something yesterday and we think you deserve to know '' Both their faces turned serious and I dread to think what was about to come out of their mouths.

Maybe Lexa had told people that I had nearly kissed her yesterday straight after I sent her that horrible message back on Facebook and blocked her.