Dare you to love me

Letting the truth out

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Chapter 21

Lexa POV

I sat there for a moment trying to comprehend what had just happened. I thought that I had done the right thing, but obviously not. Apart from Octavia and Raven though who had followed Clarke, no one else seemed to really notice what had happened. Probably just thinking that the girls had gone to get another drink.

I, however, could see the hurt that was in Clarke's eyes moments ago. Had she really wanted me to kiss her? To be her first kiss? Fucksake Lexa, you can't even do something simple right.

I stand up, not wanting to partake any more in the games when I feel someone grab a hold of my arm. I hope it's Clakre, but I also know I;m not that lucky. I turn around to meet an angry pair of brown eyes glaring at me.

"What the hell was that?" Becca angrily asks me. She lets go of my arm and folds her arms across her chest.

"I was playing the game" I shoot back at her quickly, I can feel myself becoming quickly annoyed. Who was she to look at me the way she was doing? We had come to a party together, she wasn't my girlfriend.

"That was more than playing the game Lex, you were practically eating her neck! Right in front of me!" She is yelling at me now in front of a load of people and I can't be bothered with the drama. I just want to find Clarke and make sure that she is okay.

I take a deep breath trying to compose myself, knowing that if I yell she will just yell back and before I know it I'll be in a full blown argument with someone I don't really care enough about to argue with.

"Look Becca, we aren't together so you and I can kiss who we want when we want. Stay or don;t stay I don;t mind, but I'm going to go and see if Clarke is okay" I look at her straight faced, keeping my tone even and steady. She doesn't reply but I do see her eyes start to water. Part of me feels bad, but at the same time my priorities are somewhere else, on someone else. She turns around and heads into the kitchen, leaving me alone to try and find Clarke.

All night I had been unable to take my eyes off Clarke, it was clear though that she hadn;t noticed. That's why I was so grateful when Becca had said she wanted to play drinking games, as this meant I was able to spend time around Clarke. Even if most of her friends hated me. She really did look beautiful tonight.

She had looked so nervous playing never have I ever and realised just how innocent and sweet she actually was. Part of me realising that she deserved better than a slut like me. Her eyes had kept locking with mine throug out the drinking games and I had wanted to just go and sit next to her and put my arm round her, obviously knowing thought for numerous reasons that I couldn't. The biggest one being that she didn't feel that way about girls. But maybe I was an exception. I'd kept thinking to myself, as I was sure she kept burning looks into Becca, whenever Becca had grabbed my arm or kissed my lips. I wasn't normally into PDA just noticing the reaction  I believe that I was getting from Clarke, it was worth it.

The cocky confident side of me was telling me that Clarke Griffin was definitely into me. Even if she didn't know it herself yet. But now, the softer part of me that I hadn't realised existed until I met Clarke just wanted to embrace the girl into a huge hug, rather than rip her clothes off like I'd thought about doing all night.

I needed to find her.

Clarkes POV

I'd felt Lexa's mouth meet the fruit in my mouth and I was impatiently waiting for her lips to meet mine. That's before I felt her pull away after brushing her lips on mine. I opened my eyes and saw that Lexa's face was no longer near mine and that she wasn't going to kiss me.