Dare you to love me

U turn

Clarke POV

Lexa and I sit looking at each other, waiting for my mum to return with dessert. She is about to get more than she bargained for. I understand why Lexa wants to be honest, I know she probably thinks that lying in the long run will only make it worse when the truth comes out.

I just hope my mum doesn't ban me from seeing Lexa, not that I would listen to her. But she definitely wouldn't be allowed around here anymore to visit and stay over. She would go from being this caring, amazing person to dirt in my mum's eyes.

We hear my mum coming and I clear my throat, readying myself to be honest.

Would my mum put two and two together and work out that we are a couple?

"I'm back, sorry it took so long I had to remake the custard twice. Let's just say you could have used the first batch to plaster a wall" She giggles to herself, sitting down handing us both a large bowl of fudge cake and custard.

"It looks great Abby thank you" Lexa says, I see her hands shaking slightly as she is handed the dish.

I smiled at her  reassuringly, silently letting her know that whatever words came out of my mum's mouth, I wasn't going to leave her.

"Everything okay Clarke? You look a bit pale" My mum leans in and places her hand on my head, checking my temperature.

"I'm fine, I just feel a bit sick. I think it's the medication" I tell her, playing with my pudding with a spoon.

"Tuck in then, come on Clarke. I know Lexa is your football captain and you want to appear healthy but I know it's your favourite"

She wasn't wrong, normally the bowl would be empty. But at the moment my stomach was churning with anxiety.

"Trust me, I already know how unhealthy Clarke's diet is. How she stays healthy is beyond me" Lexa and my mum both laugh at the little joke Lexa had just made.

Any minute now this bliss, this harmony would be gone. I just can't bare the thought of not being able to have Lexa in my room anymore and have her come over after school and cuddle. There are so many things we hadn't done together yet and so many things we soon won't ever be able to do in my own home.

I feel tears forming in my eyes and I try to hold them back. I'm quickly becoming overwhelmed by my thoughts and swallow hard to hold back the tears. I hope to myself that Lexa hasn't seen them but from the look on her face it was too late. I could see the guilt all over her face, obviously somehow knowing what I was thinking. She had nothing to feel guilty about though, why should she hide who she is because of my mum's ignorance. I gulp hard and clear my throat.

"Mum, there's something.. that I .. urmmm.. There's something I need to tell you" I stutter, again holding back crying.

"Clarke darling, what's wrong?" My mum puts her hand on my shoulder and I gaze over at Lexa whose eyes are glued to me.

"I need to tell you something, something about Lexa" I sigh and my mum looks over towards Lexa, probably wondering what could be so bad that it's too hard to just say.

"Just please don't get mad, okay?" I tell her, unable to look her in the face.

"Clarke, whatever it is, just tell me. Or should I ask Lexa herself?" It's hard to tell if my mum is more worried or agitated at this point and my eyes shoot straight up towards her and Lexa.

"Lexa's... Lexa's a...." I urge the word to come out, I try to force it out my mouth but the letters just don't come. Fear taking over my body.

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