Chapter 34: When You're Gone

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(Y/n)'s P.O.V

I ran towards Shin's bike shop and as soon as I got there I saw some cops and a lot of crowds. I could feel my heart sinking into the depths as I look at the ambulance.

I turn to the culprit and I saw Baji and Kazutora, I ran towards them stopping Baji from being dragged by the police. 

"Baji! What happened?" I asked panting as I gripped on Baji's arms, Tears fell down his eyes as he muttered "I'm sorry (Y/n)-Nee" My heart inside my chest tightened as I tried to suppress my tears holding on the little hope.

"W-We're sorry" The cops pulled him out of my grasp, I looked at the ambulance that was on the distance as I weakly walk towards it.

Shin is right there, he won't leave me alone. Once I was on the front of the ambulance I saw Shin lying at the wheeled stretcher his chest wasn't moving an inch. "How is he?" I asked the man who looked down with a grave expression. "He didn't make it I'm sorry" 

Those words were enough to make my knees go weak and wobbly, I knelt on the ground as I reached my hand out for Shin, 

He can't leave me! He can't! 

"No!!! AHHHH!" I cried as I punch the concrete. "SHIN HOW DARE YOU!" 

"(Y/n)-Nee" I could hear Mikey's voice beside me trying to comfort me as he pulled my hand that was reaching out to Shin.

"Come back home!" I sobbed as tears blurring my view. It was painful, everything was painful.

It was cruel, I couldn't accept it! I can't accept this reality.

"Shin" my voice started to grow tired and my vision was starting to grow hazy it felt like my consciousness was leaving me as I gasped for air.

My muscles turned weak and darkness started to envelope my entire body.

If I could turn back time, I wouldn't allow you to go out that night. If I had the power to go back I would stop you from going out that night.

This was all my fault. He died because of me.

I flutter my eyes open, my vision was blurry and a face was looking down at me.

"Shin..?" I blinked my eyes thrice until I could see clearly.

"(Y/n)-Nee!" Mikey quickly hugged me, tears formed in my eyes rolling down the side of my eyes.

"He's not gone right Mikey? Shin is still alive" I want to know, I want to see him going inside our house with a smile on his face. Welcoming me with his soothing voice.

I looked at Mikey who had a grave expression on his face as if it was just so impossible.

"I miss him" I sobbed, my voice cracked as I pull Mikey in a hug. "I want him back" I whimpered

I always needed time on my own
I never thought I'd
Need you there when I cry

I opened his cabinet to transfer his clothes on a bag, My hand pulled a suit on his cabinet as I stop and stare at it for a minute. He wore this on my birthday, when we kissed under the moonlight. 

It was still clear...everything.. was still clear to me

And the days feel like years when I'm alone
And the bed where you lie
Is made up on your side

I sat down the bed looking at the lonely and vacant side. It was where he used to lie, it was his side of the bed. There is never a day that I wouldn't think of him, I miss him. I want to see him again.

When you walk away
I count the steps that you take
Do you see how much I need you right now?

When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missin' you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missin', too
When you're gone
The words I need to hear
To always get me through the day
And make it okay
I miss you

I've never felt this way before
Everything that I do
Reminds me of you
And the clothes you left, they lie on the floor
And they smell just like you
I love the things that you do

I turn to the basket and saw a white t-shirt inside it, I walked towards it pulling it up. It was a big t-shirt it had black stains on it. I lifted it up to my nose. His scent was still lingering on this shirt, it felt like he was still here beside me.

"Shin... I miss you" I hugged the shirt tears rolling down my cheeks as I sat on the floor.

We were made for each other
Out here forever
I know we were
Yeah, yeah
And all I ever wanted was for you to know
Everything I do, I give my heart and soul
I can hardly breathe; I need to feel you here with me
Yeah

When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missin' you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missin', too
When you're gone
The words I need to hear
Will always get me through the day
And make it okay
I miss you

"I miss you Shin"

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