☁︎︎❥𝗖𝗼𝗻𝗰𝗿𝗲𝘁𝗲, 𝘁𝗼𝗺𝗺𝘆𝗶𝗻𝗻𝗶𝘁|⌫ - 𝘗𝘦𝘣𝘣𝘭𝘦 𝘉𝘳𝘢𝘪𝘯 𝘈𝘜

OHMYGODHSIFU NEW SHIP? Shut the fuck up

Allister POV:

Twitter.. was a terrible place. Twitter is trash, in the words of any wise person.

Allister am not a wise person. But she can still say at this very moment that Twitter is trash.

It was blowing up with people saying "Tommy had a woman in his video this must mean their dating" BRUH. HE'S SAID HE'S GONE ON DATES WITH GIRLS BEFORE BUT HE MAKES A VIDEO WITH AN ACQUAINTANCE AND THEY FREAK OUT??

Needless to say, Allister has been bamboozled.

Any sane person who can think straight would not make coffee pondering the internet at 3:52 am after waking up to countless messages from Tommy asking if she was okay due to the hate she was getting for existing in his video, which she was she honestly didn't fucking care, but Allister was not a sane person.

So Allister made coffee, mindlessly scrolling through tweets claiming that they were dating and here's the evidence, saying they loved her, message requests of death threats, people asking her how old she was for their own perverted tendencies or being crude and not even asking, @'s asking her to confirm things, you know you know.

The girl just blinked at her phone, unamused.

One should probably care about this but she'd been shipped with small and big streamers before just because she was female. People shipped her and HANNAH. Her and FLORENCE. And from the snippets they'd seen, HER AND LANDON. He's so gross too, what the hell.

And then they stopped caring about her and were like "oh Florence and Landon must have a secret relationship cause they aren't minors" like— I mean they aren't wrong but they also are.

That was a whole topic for another day.

Allister tossed her phone to the side in annoyance. This was a hindrance to her regular night and now she probably wouldn't sleep for the next 30 hours because adhd.

She was glad that yesterday was the day to take anxiety meds or this whole situation would be a different story.

Allister knew when she was completely conscious and not some sort of weird Allister skeleton walking around that the strangeness would set in but she'd enjoy the bliss of not caring for a bit more.

Now let me bring you back to the fact that Allister? Yea her, you know the main character? She has adhd, and she's drinking coffee, like a dumbass.

So she went for a walk. In Brighton. At what was now 4:03 am.

Again, like a dumbass.

Allister opened the door quietly, not wanting to wake up anyone. She didn't live in an apartment and Landon wasn't home. Neither were her parents.

She's very smart.

Not 2 steps out the door she realized that she needed her phone so now very loudly she turned around and swung the door closed and ran to go get her phone and her beats.

I wonder how Juliet's doing. Or like, you know any of my French friends. I wonder if they have watched or found me on the internet. Maybe they'll see me in Tommy's video. Oh well, we'll see.

For her own entertainment and the predicament of Twitter she was in right now she resumed her Mitski/Cavetown playlist from the day before, unpausing to hear First Love/Late Spring.

Allister walked down the road, peacefully listening to the music. This wasn't the first time she had to just get up and take a walk alone.

Wild women don't get the blues..

She always found herself thinking of herself when she heard the lyrics. She didn't get the blues, but she knew that this song would apply to her more and more throughout her life.

But lately I've found myself crying like a..

This is where it seems close to her.

Tall child.

Frankly, she was a tall child.

So please hurry, leave me I can't breathe.

Last relationship she was in she had to break it off due to commitment issues. That sucked.

(English translation) my heart is about to burst..

Well— no, but you understand.

One word from you and I would jump off of this ledge I'm on baby.

Please don't come back mom and dad

Tell me don't so I can crawl back in.

What I would do to reel in and relive my childhood. What wouldn't anyone do? I feel it's a common dream to grow up and people always say to not waste your childhood, that you'll wish you had it again once you did grow up, and we always laughed and smiled. Well shit.

And I was so young when I behaved 25...

I have always been told I sound older than I am, that I'm so mature. I was told I looked older, that I looked 15, and then I was 15, and then I looked 14. And now I'm 16 and they say I look 13.

And now I've found I've grown into a tall child.

My point exactly. And I've put on my childish front for the internet so long I don't know how I could ease into a mature personality, so I think I'll forever be the child of the internet.

And I don't wanna go home yet..

I don't want them to come home yet. Life is easier.

Let me climb to the top of the big night sky.

Allister POV FIRST PERSON:

I wish I could've payed more attention, I wish I could've gotten medication earlier on so I didn't have a little voice telling me to do all this stupid shit, so I didn't feel like I have two personalities. And so I didn't have to know the internet liked the one developed due to adhd.

What if my friendships were cut off because they didn't like the subdued mature version of me? What if I didn't like it, what if I wanted the childhood ignorance and playfulness of my second personality.

And I don't want to continue thinking about this because that's going to lead to anxiety for the week. Into the abyss.

Allister POV THIRD PERSON:

Allister looked around, finally taking in her surroundings and seeing where she walked. When she did so she saw something she didn't necessarily expect to see but, she could assume.

Vater und Sohns.

Well, it's always a good time for coffee. Even if it means waiting 30 minutes for it to open.