Our World

Chapter 3

Perrie's POV:

When I wake up, my head feels like it's going to burst. I muster up all my courage and slowly open my eyes. "Fuck, bad idea. Fucking hell." Suddenly I'm very aware of how the blanket feels against my skin. I'm naked? Trying to think back to last night only makes my headache worse. As I'm squinting my eyes to try and make the pain go away, my phone buzzes on my nightstand, making me lean over slowly to take a look.

From Dani: Thanks for last night Pez, I had a great time! Hope to see you soon x Dani

There is my answer. I slept with Danielle last night. I was really off my trolley after all those shots we did. Not that I regret anything, it was a great night. What I do regret is taking Danielle back to our place. If Jade heard anything, I know she was awake in her bed feeling so uncomfortable, and her home is not a place where she should ever feel like that.

As I turn back around to go back to sleep, I feel my stomach turn. Oh god, I'm going to be sick. Scrambling out of bed, I grab a robe and put it on on my way to the door. I rush to the bathroom and empty my stomach down the toilet.

Wow, I really feel like crap. I feel another wave of sickness coming and before I can vomit, a pair of soft hands grab my hair back. "Get it all out of your system, babe." Jade's soft voice immediately makes me feel better. She stays with me rubbing my back and holding my hair until I finally start to feel better. I really don't deserve a friend like her.

"Take a cold shower. I'll get you a glass of water and something to eat." Jade pulls me up from the ground and leaves the bathroom. God, she really sounded disappointed again. I feel like I'm about to cry, so I quickly lock the door and slide down with my back against the wall, head in my hands.

I'm such a fuck up. I'm the worst best friend she could ever have. I should consider Jade more often instead of just going out and getting hammered. Tears stream down my face as I think about how Jade must feel every time I go out. I know how much she worries in general, and me being drunk out of my mind multiple times a week can't be helping. A soft knock interrupts my thoughts. "Pez, you okay in there? I brought you some clothes." I feel a soft sob escape my lips and can't bring myself to open that door. I just can't let her in. Jade sighs heavily at the other side of the door before I hear footsteps leave.

That's when I break down.

More than an hour later, I finally enter the kitchen. Jade has her back turned to me. "Sit. We need to talk." Her pissed off tone makes me sit down in a heartbeat. "About what?" She turns around and instead of being met with her soft gaze, she glares at me. Fuck she knows. She knows I slept with one of her best friends. Were we too loud? Probably. Shit shit shit... "You." She says, looking me straight in the eye.

"What are you doing with your life Perrie? You need to stop this right now!" She starts walking towards me but stops when she sees the surprised look on my face. "Stop with what, Jade? I have no idea what you're talking about." The words leave my mouth without thinking since this was not the conversation I was expecting.

"SERIOUSLY, PERRIE?!" Her shouting makes me jump slightly in my seat. She takes a deep breath before she continues. "What happened 5 months ago? You changed all of a sudden. And I'm not only talking about the partying." A short silence follows before she continues. "You're shutting me out. I know you think I don't notice because you're pretty damn good at hiding it, but I do notice Perrie. I know you, and I know you're keeping something from me." She says, her voice dripping with sincerity. I should've known that if someone would notice being shut out, it's Jade.

"And don't even get me started on the partying. You are literally insane. You're drinking is getting really out of hand, Pez. If I didn't know any better, I would think you're trying to kill yourself." In any other situation, I would find her rambling cute, but now it's just terrifying. "It's because I am." The words leave my mouth in a whisper without me being able to hold them in. At this point, I'm not even sure whether or not I mean them.

Jade's eyes go wide and fill with tears. "Wh-what did you say?" Of course she fricking heard me. "Nothing. Jade, honestly, you don't need to worry. Everything is fine with me, really." I grab hold of her hands and make her look into my eyes. "I'm fine, Jade."

"Then start acting like it. I can't stand to see you like this anymore. I really can't. It breaks my heart to see you mess up your life, so please, stop." A tear escapes her eye as she says this. I quickly wipe it away with my thumb, which lingers as I speak. "I will, Jade, I will stop. Anything for you."

I pull her close to my body by her waist, and her hands wrap around my neck instinctively. "I love you, Jadey." Her soft lips kiss my cheek and I feel her lips moving against my skin when she speaks up. "I love you too, Pezza."

At this exact moment, for the first time in 5 months, I feel perfectly content. I could stay like this forever, wrapped up in Jade's embrace, her warm body pressed against mine.

As Jade holds me, I realize that this woman means everything to me. Seeing her hurt like this was never my intention, and it's time for me to get over myself and stop drinking myself into oblivion. Jade deserves better from her best friend.