You never know.... ( AMBW )

Chapter 68

Oh god ! Why was this happening to me ?

Sierra's pov~

I should've never trusted him one bit. I only did so for the sake of Aya. And she's in danger of being taken away from me now.

Why ? He's already done so much to me. If he takes my baby. I don't know what I might do. I can't believe he even said those things to me in the first place.

My baby loves me. I believe she'd choose me. But sadly that's not how the courts or law works. He has the money to do whatever he wants. And if I wanted to bring up that he violated me in the past in court. I didn't even know if this case would be in the public eye. And I'd be judged by many. Was I ready to take it that far ?

But do anything for my baby.

What he also gave me an ultimatum was child custody papers arriving at my house the next day. With an post it note saying I had five days to respond.

By now I had only 4 1/2 days to think over. Hell I haven't even told my parents yet. Or my friends what was going on.

I mean why he had throw this is my face at this very moment ? When his friend's fiance is missing too... He's going too far !

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On the third day of my supposedly taking my time to think things over. I truly wanted to believe that he wasn't serious. I  still had a hard time talking it over with someone about this.

I almost did tell my therapist but made it seem like I was talking about someone else. But she figured out where I was going with my rant when I had my session on a Thursday afternoon after work. And I haven't talked about the father of child coming back into my life. Or did I, I was so confused. Everything was a mess.

I felt it was too much to unload a lot of my problems with just anyone. She has told me times if I had anything else on my mind or get off my chest could do so. I wanted to but I was reluctant to though.

" What you just told me is telling. If you need help just let me know Sierra, " she said to me at the end of the session then handed me a card of an women's help organization.

" Okay, " was all I could say as I left her office, stuffed the card inside the side pocket of my bag.

And all the while I kept thinking of our session. It was starting to stress me out. Nagging at me like an seriously bad toothache that wasn't going away until I went to an dental office.

So basically it was an decision was forcing to do something I scared of. Afraid of actually mean getting married was equal to getting teeth pulled. But it kind of did with what the aftermath of things could take place.

I thought to myself as I walked to my car. My way of thinking made me feel totally confused all around. I had to sit in the parking for extra ten minutes before leaving.

As I drove home, I knew I had speak on this with someone that I knew I could trust.

But who ? Was the question.

I needed to speak a lawyer, fast because my time was slipping away. And I wouldn't be bullied into doing something I didn't want to do. Just because on the outside looking in would be nice.

And what society believed, that a child needed both parents in the home. To have a happy life.

But what about the parents. Or circumstances that in which the child had been brought into the world.

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A day later after asking Jasmine what she thought about my situation. She pointed me in the right direction to the legal counselor that I needed.

Talking to the lawyer was very nervous wrecking. Sitting there as she told me what all could happen badly first. Then went on to the good. From the case could be prolonged from three months  to three years. I didn't need that type of stress in my life. It's already kind of hard right now.

I need to show evidence that I was the best parent for my child. In evidence, I would have to bring that up. Because the crime was never filed in the first place. I just basically pushed it to the background.

I was becoming a new mother back then. And I didn't have time to actually worry about myself. I had a baby to take care of. I'm not saying I didn't need any help. And sad to say that going to the police wasn't high up there on my priority list.

Plus Chan skipped town. No more like countries. Hell I didn't even know which part of Thailand he stayed in. This would be an international case. Would anyone believe me and my story ?

I was scared out of my mind to have folks bare witness, to hear what happened to me all those years ago. Especially now, with him present.

It was something that I dreaded as I left the lawyer's office with Jasmine. As she repeatedly beforehand tried to get me to tell the lawyer my story.

I could maybe ultimately win the custody case. Or it could be an disaster ?

With Chan taking my baby away.

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I lied awake in bed because sleep was evading me. My anxiety was high, it was 4 am. So I turned on the TV after coming back from downstairs after making some chamomile tea. Just to calm my nerves.

Two hours went by, I was still up. I then suddenly was frightened by my phone ringing. And I picked it up, looked at the screen, saw....

Chan's Number...

Why was he calling so early in the morning ?

And next thought process was maybe I should ignore him.

But decided against it. Because he could use it against me in court. Yeah it's a dumb thought but who knows.

So I answered the call.....

" So this is your answer Sierra. I thought you knew better than that. "

Chan said dryly into the phone.

Wow this took a lot out of me. Hopefully I can get back on track with story, have an direction going with it also. Plus I had this in draft for so many months. Sorry for making you guys wait.