✧𝔻𝔼𝕍𝕆𝕋𝕀𝕆ℕ~ 𝒶𝓃𝒾𝓂𝑒 𝑜𝓃𝑒𝓈𝒽𝑜𝓉 𝒸𝑜𝓁𝓁𝑒𝒸𝓉𝒾𝑜𝓃~✧

✧Lan Zhan- Lifesaver✧

A/N- In this one shot, you're Lan Zhan's older sibling. I'm sorry that for a lot of Lan Zhan oneshots, I make you his sibling. It's just easier to write (and more fun) that way. Also in this oneshot there's going to be mentions of self-harm and blood so I'll mark off where those start and end for you guys.

AFTER WEI YING died, Lan Zhan no longer found a meaning to life. Everyday, he missed the feeling of having Wei Ying's arms around his waist, and he missed the intimate moments that he had shared with his husband.

Both Xichen and you tried to comfort your little brother as much as you could, but it was hard. He locked himself in his room, and he wouldn't even let either of you in. You had to actually go to Grandmaster Quiren and have him order Lan Zhan to come out for you to be able to comfort him. And the loss went far to deep for him to be comforted so easily.

Xichen, being the caring older brother, was very scared for Lan Zhan's health. He spoke to you privately about how he thought that your brother would end up killing himself at this rate. When he said that, the seriousness of the situation sunk in, and you felt devastated. How could you help your precious younger brother realize how much his life mattered, and how much you needed him to be with you in this world?

After Xichen voiced his concerns, you began to pay attention to your younger brother more closely, to make sure that he wasn't suffering too much. Through small actions you did for him, like making him food every day and visiting with him, you hoped he could see how much you appreciated him.

You certainly didn't expect what you saw that one fateful day,

You were walking near the river in the mountains behind Cloud Recesses when you saw a trail of blood and heard the sounds of someone sobbing. Curious, you followed the blood until it stopped, and then lifted your head up from the trail to see Lan Zhan lying against a rock, blood covering his arms and chest.

A/N- Mentions of self-harm start here.

To your horror, you saw Lan Zhan take a knife and cut his forearm, right above his wrist. He began to sob louder and whimpered due to the pain, but then he cut himself again, and again, and again.

A/N- The mentions of self-harm end here.

You threw yourself on top of him, knocking his knife to the ground and pushing him down so that he was lying on the ground with you sitting on top of him. He tried to cover his cuts with his hands, but he ended up crying out because of the pain of moving his arm.

"Wangji di di..." you said (di di is younger brother in Mandarin) "Why are you doing this to yourself? What is so painful that you need to hurt yourself in this way to get it out?"

He looked up at you with his eyes filled with tears, looking so sad it melted your heart.

"Wei Ying..." he whispered. "I miss Wei Ying..."

"Oh Wangji... I know you miss him, but hurting yourself isn't good! You should come to Xichen and me when you're hurting, we can comfort you so that you don't need to cut yourself like this. It hurts doesn't it?"

"Y-yes... i-it hurts s-so much..." he said, tears running down his cheeks. "Make the pain go away... make it go away, please!"

You wrapped your arms around your younger brother and pulled him up to his feet. As soon as he could move again, he covered his cuts with his sleeves so that nobody would see them.

How long have you been doing this for, Wangji? How long have you been hiding your pain from me, from those who love you?

"Let's go to Xichen, alright? He needs to know about this," you said.