Finding the real Tony Stark

Chapter 31

"Next just a fair warning there will be a panic attack in it."

Tony and Natasha lay in their bed, watching Tv. Tony lay with his top half bare, only wearing his pajama bottoms. Natasha wore one of Tony's band tshirts and her matching pajama pants.

"That's so cute!"
By now everyone had grown used to the arc whenever they saw Tony's bare chest and all the other small scars littered over his body but most of them hadn't hesitated to send glared at Howard and anyone else who may have harmed Tony.

Tony had his arm wrapped around Nat's shoulder and she was leaning her head on his while they watched TV in silence. It was some sort of series and the series had decided that Avengers existed in the show but they only had brief mentions.

That's when one of the characters started to talk about the New York aliens and how their predicament was very similar to that.

Natasha looked up at Tony when she heard his heart skip a beat and his breath hitched.
His face had gone pale so she sat up a bit and put her hand on his chest, the other holding her up.
"Tony? Tony, baby?" He had gone into a trance sort of and his breathing had quickly gotten louder and faster, his chest heaving.

In real time Tony had also gone a bit pale and his gaze was transfixed on the screen.
Natasha grabbed his hands and held them to her chest.
"Listen to my heart beat. Breath Tony, breath." He took deep, exaggerated breaths with him.
Others looked at him sympathetically while he tried his best to act tough.
(His efforts were cute)

"I don't understand? Ducky what's wrong? You can't just randomly have a panic attack something had to trigger it." Peggy asked, she seemed extremely concerned for her godson and Jarvis started to get closer to Tony for comfort.
#JarvisProtectionSquad

"Come here sir," Jarvis opened his arms and waited for Tony to crawl into them then pulled Tony close to his chest just like when he was a child.

Natasha watched closely with a smile. She knew how hard Jarvis's death was for Tony as she was there for him and it was nice to see Tony with him again. And it was nice to see Jarvis I'm general, he was a nice man and they had many encounters.

"Back when the avengers were first formed we were brought together because of Loki."

"Correction it wasn't me technically it was Thanos and the Tesseract." Loki explained. Everyone knew that Loki had been mind controlled by Thanos.

"Yes well short story Thanos had an alien army and they attacked New York. Us five avengers had to fight them all and it was worse than both world wars and any war put together. New York was destroyed and millions died or got injured. Anyways there was a portal and we had to close it. The government sent a nuke into New York and they had planned to just blow up New York completely. Tony was in his suit and guided the middle into the portal so he could blow up the mothership but that meant he had to go through the portal. He blew it up and I had to close the portal while I had the scepter but Tony didn't come back down until just before the portal closed as he came down and he fell it was a nightmare and I'd rather not go on I'm sure we will see it later..." Nat said and she went to stroke Tony's hair and held his hand.

Nat snatched the remote from where it had hidden under the sheets and turned the Tv off.
"Tony? Tony, don't listen to that. Hey, look at me." She went out to touch his face but he immediately flinched and scrambled off the bed before getting out and staggering his way over to the bathroom.

"Tony!" Nat followed after him but he made it to the bathroom first and locked the door before she could step in.
She banged her fists on the door.
"Tony open the door!"

Ok the other side, Tony had fallen to his knees and crawled over to the toilet and only just made it before he started heaving into the toilet.
"I didn't know people threw up when having panic attacks?"
"Some do. Everyone has a different response and everyone has different types of panic attacks." Sam explained. He was an expert after all.

Nat's banging could be heard and the sound of something messing with the lock got louder.
"Tony! Tony let me in, open the door!"

Tony crawled away from the toilet and huddled away to a corner, bringing his knees up to his chest and wrapping his arms around his legs. Then he hid his face in his knees and started sobbing.
"I- can't breath-," he gasped out.

Abruptly the door flew off its hinges and Nat came barging into the bathroom.
"Oh Tony..."
She ran up to him and wrapped his arms around him.
"Miss Romanoff, it seems that sir's temperature is increasing rapidly and is now at 112 degrees." Jarvis informed her.

"Shit, shit, shit," she started to panic a little and put one arm under Tony's leg, the other under his arms and hoisted him into the air before carrying him to the shower. By now he had stopped crying but was whispering the same thing over and over again.

"What's he saying?"
"Something about New York and the portal, how he's sorry or something I couldn't hear very well."

Nat reached up and joined Tony in the shower before making the temperature as cold as she could and turned the water on.
They both flinched when the water hit them but she let it run onto them lightly while she crouched down to talk to him.

"That's commitment."

"Hey Tony, look at me." She reached out and grabbed his face and turned it so he was looking right at her.
"You're safe, we're in your Malibu house, it's snowing outside, it's 9:14pm. Tuesday 17th January 2014. It's snowing outside." She went on to tell him what they did today and started to ramble about random things.

He wasn't exactly focused but it looked like he was starting to calm down.
Nat smiled as she realized he was going to be ok and put his hands on her chest so he could feel her heartbeat.

"I'm sorry..." Tony whispered, he looked down at the floor of the shower and Nat wrapped her arms around him.
"It's not your fault darling. Are you ok now?"
Tony didn't say anything but nodded and let Natasha drag him out the shower, dry him with a towel and change his clothes.

Once they both had dry clothes on, she tucked him into bed then joined next to him.
"You're the best, I really don't deserve you..." he mumbled into her neck. He had wrapped his arms around her torso and put his face in her neck.

She leaned down to kiss the top of his head.
"Don't say that Tony, if anything I don't deserve you. Now go to sleep котёнок," she whispered.

Tony closed his eyes and slowly drifted off to sleep and Nat followed soon after with Tony wrapped safely in her arms.

"Awww."
"That was actually so heart warming.."
"Thank you so much darling, for looking after my little ducky." Peggy thanked Nat for everything.

"I'm not a little ducky," Tony whined quietly.
Jarvis and Peggy chuckled and ruffled his hair.
"Sure you aren't ducky."
"To me you will always be my little baby."

Tony had flushed bright red at all the nicknames.

"Where does the nickname ducky come from anyways?" Steve asked politely.
Everyone smiled at Steve for his attempt at being nice and also curious to where ducky came from.

"Well, when Tony was a child around 2 or 3 maybe? Well me and miss Carter- sorry, me and Peggy, had gone out shopping and we found a duck that was absolutely adorable. We bought it for Tony and the duck looked a lot like Tony so we called the duck ducky and it was also a nickname." Jarvis explained, smiling fondly at the memory.

"I just know for a fact the Jarvis Protection Squad is very interested in this story,"
"I'm sorry the what-,"

"Bye ducky!"
Clint snickered. He wouldn't be forgetting that anytime soon. And so the teasing began.