The Unwanted Marriage

Chapter 55

THEA

I barely had sleep as this guilt had slowly eating me. Arthur was fast asleep beside me, I never once freed my hands from holding him in my arms as he slept.

Arthur never let himself get drunk, he liked to drink but not enough to let alcohol took over his mind, I knew that because I had never seen him drunk before. And he told me himself that he stopped drinking much once he graduated college.

It added another real guilt that I had caused this mess. He was drunk now because of me. He was heartbroken because me. I had never hated myself the way I did now.

"I'm sorry, I'm so sorry." I whispered quietly, over and over as I kissed his forehead.

I was glad that my kiss wouldn't wake him up. He snorted quite heavily, I knew he hadn't had enough good sleeps for the past 2 weeks. He looked like he really need this sleep.

And I determined to apologize to him when he woke up. I didn't want to put us through this mess again, it needed to stop. I had to save our family.

But I didn't know if Arthur could forgive me. I couldn't bare at the thought of losing him. I didn't want to lose him, ever. I had fallen in love-so deep-with him. I would never be ready to lose him, I couldn't imagine a life without him. So I hoped he could forgive me, I hoped he would try to forgive me.

The guilt had worn me our that I eventually was able to fall asleep, in the arms of my husband for the first time in a while.

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ARTHUR

The first thing happened when I woke up was the worst headache I had ever felt in my life.

"Fuck." I cursed under my breath as I remembered what happened last night.

I actually got wasted from drinking too much, which never happened for years. I promised myself that I would never give in to alcohol too much. I got a bit of taste of my own medicine a few years ago when I partied all night during college. I got too drunk that one night, getting into fight with some dude and ended up getting arrested for 3 hours before River bailed me out with the help of his uncle.

It was not the best moment in my life, and I was ashamed of myself. Hence why I stopped drinking much once I graduated from college.

I groaned as my head kept pounding, it had been years since I last felt this kind of after-drunk effect, but I didn't miss it for a bit. I slowly opened my eyes, and the first thing I saw was my wife's beautiful sleeping face. 

I sucked on my breath as I saw the view, it had been a while since I looked at her this close. She always slept with her back facing me ever since we lost our baby. 

Another thing was that I realized that Thea had her arms wrapped around me. Did it happen the entire night we slept?

I couldn't help but smiled at the thought of her slowly opening herself back, but I quickly dismissed the idea before I got too happy. It was most likely a subconscious action Thea did in her sleep. It happened quite regularly when we sleep, this one made no difference. 

And I remembered how she had pushed me away all this time, how she treated me the past 2 weeks. I was alone when I needed her the most. She was not there when I needed her. I didn't want to be upset because of her, but I couldn't help being disappointed. And hurt.

I untangled her arm that was rested on my chest, and slowly got up from the bed. I needed to shower and brush my teeth to get rid of the alcohol taste, and quite possibly the smell and the touch some women tried to throw themselves into me last night at the club.