Idol? Ex? Doctor? What? - english version

Part XIV

Jennie Kim

"I never complained about it, Chu." I start laughing softly as she distributes wet kisses and bites from my neck and up to my shoulder. I take off her sweater and watch her as she unbuttons my shirt.

"What do you mean?" She arches her eyebrow when she sees me sigh.

"I always drooled over your abs, you know? For your whole body actually." I sigh again as I slide my fingers down her abs, watching her shiver.

"No, I never noticed, to be honest, but I always checked your cleavage." She shrugs and I arches my brow at the audacity she had.

"Kim Jisoo!"

"What?" She starts to laugh "I thought we were supposed to be honest." when she pouts, I can't resist and bite her mouth.

"You're a pervert!" shake my head.

"I'm not! Not as much as you're thinking, at least." she tries to make an innocent expression and I roll my eyes.

"I'll do an investigation to find out about your past." I squinted my eyes watching her.

"Forget this, doesn't matter, okay?" Jisoo pinches my cheeks.

"Why? What's there that I can't know?"

"Jen, let's move on?" She slides her fingers under my abs, making squirm inside me and keeps watching my lacy black bra.

"My eyes are up here." I whisper and she bites her mouth harder.

"I know and as much as I love getting lost in your eyes, I'm really interested down here." I place my fingers under her chin and pull her face close to mine.

"What did you do, Kim Jisoo?" I say seriously and I see the fear mirrored in her eyes.

"Nothing, Jen." She looks away and I presses my fingers on her cheeks.

"Jisoo, don't lie to me, I really want to know what you did before you went back to my life."

"I don't want you to get angry." she sighs and I'm already annoyed at this point.

"I'll be annoyed if you keep stalling me, Kim. How did things start between you and Soojoo?"

"You don't need to worry about Soojoo, I already told you." she tries to get away and I pull her again.

"You'll not escape this, so start talking." She closes her eyes when she hears me and is silent for a few minutes.

"I went to a few parties at university, kissed and slept with a few people, nothing serious, nothing you need to worry about." She nods and I sigh. I won't give up until my curiosity is satisfied.

"Did you have something with Soojoo while you were still with us?"

"Huh, yeah, I-I..." I intensify my gaze when she starts to stutter and she looks away from mine, taking a deep breath "Define to have something." She says without looking at me.

"Did you two kiss, had any romance or something like that?"

"Yeah..." she grits her teeth "We kissed a few times while I was part of the group, all of them were after I was complaining or grieving for you." I could hit her right now, but I'll try to stay silent and speak only when she's finished.

"Why did she do medicine with you?"

"The day I left, I didn't know where to go. My parents wouldn't answer me and Soojoo was the only one who knew about it" she swallows hard and closes her eyes "So I went to her house and amongst so many conversations we decided to give a try, so we ended up going in together. She helped me, was patient with me, prevented me from going back on the choice I had made."

"She did everything to keep you away from me." I say softly and she looks at me quickly, but looks away.

"I think it was halfway or towards the end of the course, a situation began to repeat itself."

"What a situation?"

"Every time we drank, we ended up sleeping together." I clench my jaw when I hear that and take a deep breath. I was grieving for her, thinking about what had happened while she was playing tag with Hong Soojoo. EXCELLENT! PERFECT! "The other day, nobody talked about it, it was kind of taboo in our friendship, but we knew that wherever we went and there was drinking, we were already sure what would happen. Until it got to a point where we did on purpose, or so it seemed" she shrugs "I wasn't such an idiot not to know about her feelings for me." She sighs and looks back at me.

"So you started dating and lived happily." I let go of her face and she looks surprised.

"No, we continued with this for months until one day we stopped. She stopped, actually she left with someone else who wasn't me. At first I was upset and annoyed" she says in a slightly irritated tone "I thought I had forgotten you when I felt these things when I saw Soojoo change me. I stopped at a convenience, it was dawn, I was looking for soju..." Suddenly the memory hits me.

It's at least 2 and a half years old, I think, Lisa and I went into a store to buy snacks because it was too late and we hadn't had dinner before the show. We were elated that day, energized by the screams of fans. Anyone could think we were both drunk, but it was just happiness.

She was getting some snacks and I was getting drinks when someone passed me and the perfume reminded me of Jisoo. I almost dropped the things at that point, but when I turned around to look, it was just me, Lisa, and the staff in the store. My mind was playing tricks on me.

"You, Lisa and at least 4 men entered the store and when I heard your laugh I froze. Panic started to build inside me" she doesn't look away now "Just when I found the soju you were looking for, you came to the freezer to get drinks and I managed to escape between the shelves and crouched in the back of the store, where I knew it would be nearly impossible for you to go because there was no food there." she laughs "So I stayed there, for almost an hour, my mind collapsing because I had seen you, we had been so close and so far. I wanted to cry, Jennie, because I realized I was just ego bruised that Soojoo had chosen someone other than me, because in that moment when I heard your laugh and saw your smile, I knew I could never forget you. You were always my biggest weakness, you always will be."

"Jisoo..." I place my hand on her cheek and she sighs.

"So I pulled away from Soojoo for a week, until I was acting normal again, she was really worried that I was hurt by her for leaving with whoever, but then the news came out of you dating Jongin and that was the day that I drank the most in my whole life, because I saw you two on TV and you were happy, my heart got so heavy and it hurt so much."

"Jisoo, I..."

"And then I arrived at the dorm and kissed Soojoo, simple as that. Neither she or I expected this, no one planned, so I kissed her and asked her to date. I had decided I was going to forget about you, I was going to take you out of my heart because we would never see each other again." she looks away again "And it worked, for a while, but Soojoo's jealous and we started arguing a lot after we entered the hospital. We broke up and came back so many times, so many relapses. When we had sat down and talked and decided to try again, days later you arrived at the hospital and here we're."