Idol? Ex? Doctor? What? - english version

Part IX

4/6 - Kim Jisoo

Do you know when you have a really good dream, only to wake up and know it's reality? That all the good you supposedly experienced was just a free sample of something you'll never get?

That's what I felt the last few days. Whenever I think about Jennie, that's practically all the time, I go back to that moment. For those kisses, those nails, those hands, that tongue. I feel my body shiver, but when someone brings me back to reality, it's like I've been punched in the face because I know it's never going to happen again. That only happened because Jennie was probably raving about the post-CT effects.

How am I going to look at her today? What if she comes with Jongin? Oh God, Jongin! Now I realized that he's a key piece in this puzzle that has always been perfect for illustrating things between the two of us. For sure, she must be dying with regret for having betrayed Jongin. Jennie has always been responsible and honest, cheating doesn't suit her.

I lean my head back on the table and take a deep breath. I should quit my job, move to Japan and get a job there. That's it, it's the only thing I can do to get away from it all. I can't handle, I don't have the psyche to see Jennie and Jongin happy, loving each other, while I feel all this for her. I let out a loud moan of frustration and hear the knock on the door.

"Soo?" is Soojoo's voice.

"Yeah?" I sigh and sit up correctly as she opens the door and continues to stand in it.

"Our patient arrived, I thought about participating in the last meetings to find out about her situation." She gives a brief smile and I stand up. I rub my eyes that are a little tired and put on my glasses.

"Yes, of course, no problem. It's better this way." I smile at her and I'm looking for my lab coat, but I remember that today I just came to do some paperwork and for this meeting. I grab my bag and clipboard with Jennie's evolution data.

"You really look great wearing that dark plaid blouse and those white skintight pants." She watches me as I approach and my cheeks blush.

"Will you ever lose your power to make me blush?" She laughs when she hears me.

"You look so much more beautiful when you blush." She pinches my cheek and I roll my eyes.

"You're annoying, Jooya." I nudge her with my shoulder. "Are you on duty today?"

"Yeah, unfortunately, why?" she puts her hands inside her lab coat and is swaying under her feet while we wait for the elevator to stop on the 2nd floor.

"I was thinking of asking you out. Drink some soju, eat some chips..." I arch an eyebrow and she smiles wide as we leave.

"Sooya, you only think about it when I'm busy." She rolls her eyes and slides her finger across my shoulder, up my neck, biting her bottom lip. "I'll see what I can do, talk to a doctor on duty."

"You know you don't need to do this, we can leave when we're free together." I smile and she leans against the door, pulling me with her.

"Lately for you to have some free time, just with some miracle, like today, I'm not going to waste a night of drinks with you." She holds the collar of my shirt making me laugh "I'll text you if I can change." as soon as she finishes speaking, the door opens to reveal Lisa with an arched eyebrow and Jennie sitting on the gurney, with that deadly look, making me gulp and a feeling of guilt wash over me.

"Good afternoon." I smile at Lisa and her expression closes. There are times when I think Lisa will never forgive me for everything that happened, but I can't blame her, I really was selfish. She just turns around and goes back to where she was "Hello, Miss Kim. How are things?"

"Good afternoon, girls." Soojoo says smiling as I sit in the chair behind the desk and she stands behind me.

"Well, when can I take that boot off? I'm freaking out, tired of staying home and doing nothing, I need to go out and distract myself." Jennie crosses her arms and snorts, so cute when she teases and I'm smiling at her.

"Just after our last appointment." I say and she frowns at me, more annoyed than before and I realize Soojoo has her hands on my shoulders.

"From now on, I'll follow all the meetings to stay on top of your evolution for when we start the physio." Soojoo squeezes my shoulders and I takes a deep breath. She was always good with her hands, in massages so wonderful. Lisa's watching us so intently that I feel uncomfortable all of a sudden, so I stand up.

"Joo, sit down, I'm going to examine Miss Kim's ankle." I approach Jennie and the stupid smile returns to my face when we're close to each other.

"Why are you without a coat today?" Jennie says quietly.

"Today I only had to come to fill out some paperwork and for your consultation." I say as I fold the hem of her jeans and slowly take off her boot. Her scent invades my mind, bringing me to that day.

"I felt special for that, but you're not so badly dressed." I see out of the corner of my eye that she's checking me out and I let out a low laugh.

"Thanks, a compliment coming from Jennie Kim is something really important." I look up her body until we face each other and I see her cheeks turn red. I give her a smug smile before going back to examining her ankle.

"Jisoo, we need a ride home." I freeze when I hear Lisa's voice calling me by my own name and I don't know what to say "It's the least you can do, in my opinion."

"Lalisa!" Jennie's voice scolding her makes me want to laugh.

"No problem, I'll take you." I say as I put the boot on Jennie again "The swelling is totally gone, apparently. That's great, but I want you to keep wearing the boot and now you can try walking normally, but without pushing too hard or putting all your weight on that ankle, okay?"

"Finally, good news." She smiles "Now I can move more freely than before."

"Come on, I'm hungry, really, really hungry." Lisa gets up.

"Want to try going down alone? I'll help you." I reach out to her and she takes quickly, but she goes down carefully and makes me smile. "Great, I think you'll be ready for another one soon."

"Let's go?" Lisa insists and I pull away from Jennie.

"Yeah" I go to where Soojoo's and write some things down on the clipboard, taking my bag right away "I'm coming, if you need me, you know how to contact me!" I smile softly at her who looks away from Jennie and stares at me, but doesn't answer anything, just nods her head.