Idol? Ex? Doctor? What? - english version

Part XXXI

Kim Jisoo

"How long have you been here?" I hear Soojoo's soft, worried voice.

"I don't know." I say with my eyes glazed over by the recent results of Chaelisa's exams.

"Jisoo, how long have you been in the hospital?" Soojoo crouches down beside my chair and I let out a heavy sigh before looking at her.

"3 days." I shrug "Something like that, why, Hong?" I raise an eyebrow at her.

"You haven't slept in 3 days, Kim." She shakes her head in denial and stands up, taking her phone. I rub my eyes and yawn, looking at my living room filled with books and papers everywhere. "You're being irresponsible."

"This is not the time to weaken, I need to find out what the girls have. Something isn't hitting, Hong." I get up looking for some results "I can't figure out what they have, I've done all the exams and tests possible. I studied so long to find out now that I suck, I can't help my friends when they need me."

"JISOO!" Soojoo pushes me against the table, hands on my face "Stop blaming yourself! You have to rest your mind to think clearly, you're looking like a zombie with dark circles under your eyes and living on coffee, you're not going to help anyone if you keep it that way and they need you at your best."

"I was in my best state when they got sick and I didn't hit the result of what they have, what the hell am I a doctor ?" I put my hands on her wrists, squeezing "You don't understand, I owe it to them." I look away to the door when I see Jennie with a raised eyebrow and her arms crossed, making me shiver. "Jennie!" I swallow dry.

"I'm glad you arrived, it's hard to try to make Jisoo create some sense." Soojoo sighs and turns to Jennie.

"What?!" I look back at Soojoo with no idea what's going on.

"72 hours without sleep, Jisoo? Really? I expected more from you." Jennie approaches us and my hands are sweating.

"Good luck, you're going to need it." Soojoo shrugs as she leaves the room and I don't know who I'm looking at.

"Come on, Jisoo, let's go for you to take a shower and get some rest." Jennie takes my hand, but she uses that cold, cutting tone of voice.

"I can't, I have..." I stop talking when she gives me that fatal look.

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I wake up a few hours later, in a room that isn't mine, to hear the screaming outside. I run my hand over my face, trying to remember how I got here. Oh, I'm at Jennie's apartment. I get up quickly and open the door, heading towards the living room.

"I HAD YOU BREAKDOWN WITH HER AND WHAT DO YOU DO? IT'S PHOTOGRAPHED WITH HER WHILE YOUR GROUP ARE IN A CRITICAL STATE." Yang's voice resonates throughout the space and they both look at me when I reach the room, still reeling from sleep.

"What's going on here?" I stare at Jennie who is red in the face and her hands clenched tightly.

"The fault of them being sick is not Jisoo's."

"Since you don't get their diagnosis right, tell me, Kim Jisoo" Yang approaches me with a mocking smile on his face "What the girls have can't be because they're worried about their future and it's manifesting itself in physical symptoms?"

"What are you saying?" I squint my eyes.

"That you two are sacrificing everything that has been built so far to live this pathetic love story that probably has a date set to end." He changes his voice "Did you even consider this possibility?"

"ENOUGH! GET OUT OF HERE! I WON'T ALLOW YOU TO KEEP SAYING THESE SHITS!" Jennie goes to the door, opening and waiting for Yang to come out. After a few more minutes of staring at me, he turns and walks to the door.

"She's going to be the undoing of all of us and it's your fault, Jennie." he says before Jennie closes the door and starts crying. I approach her slowly, stopping in front of her, watching her.

"Jen, I..."

"Is what he said true?" She says without looking at me, wiping her tears.

"What?" I turn my head to the side, still confused by all this.

"Can Yang be right?" She stares at me, her eyes shining with anger and coldness.

"Yes, but the girls have no history of being psychosomatic, it's something I need to go back to the hospital and..." I stop talking when I feel the thud of her body against mine. Jennie is hugging me so tightly I can barely breathe.

"Chu, I'm so scared." she says softly, after a few minutes "I'm afraid this is all the beginning of the end, I can't lose you." I hear her sob and my shoulder start to get wet.

"You won't miss them, I promise you." I move away and put my hands on her face, looking into those feline eyes so worried and wet "I swear I'll do anything to help them, even if it's the last thing I do."

"But I can't lose you either, Chu." she says softly and I bite my bottom lip.

"Jen, you won't lose me. We'll go through all of this together and we'll get over it, I'll find out what the girls have and they'll be fine." I hug her tightly, trying to believe my own words.

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