Idol? Ex? Doctor? What? - english version

Part XXIV

Jennie Kim

Japan. I always liked Japan. This country has always had some kind of importance to me, but who am I kidding? I always liked Japan because of her.

Life is so good I get a little scared. Just thinking about the idea of ​​losing Jisoo again gives me despair, an urge to cry.

"Where are you?" I feel a slap from Rosé "I'm calling you several times and you look like a zombie."

"Yeah?" I pout.

"I wanted to change my hair, but I don't know what color it is, what do you think?"

"I like your hair like this, it's beautiful!" I smile at her "You're always beautiful, Rosie Posie!"

"Jennie?!" a surprised tone makes me turn in my chair and I see Kai. Rosé and I are at a restaurant having dinner while Jisoo went to be the inspirational muse of Lisa's channel.

"Jongin." I nod politely to him and his group partners.

"Go ahead, I'll go right away," he says to his friends, then walks over to us and sits in one of the chairs. I give Rosé a what the fuck is going on look and she just shrugs "I didn't know the great Blackpink was here too." he says smiling.

"We arrived two days ago, we're leaving in two days." I put a lock of hair behind my ear.

"How are things?" He takes my hand and I widen my eyes in surprise.

"They're fine, I think in a way they've never been before."

"How's your ankle? It's better? Have you finished the treatment?" he caresses the back of my hand with his thumb. "I miss you so much, I still think it was a mistake to break up and I really wanted you to try..."

"Ppoooong!" I jump when I hear this in my ear, followed by typical laughter from Lisa and Jisoo. My heart is racing and I see Kai's expression close as he glares at Jisoo. A big question mark on his face.

"Jisoo, what a surprise to see you here." Kai as always being a diplomat.

"Hi, Jongin." Jisoo says in her polite tone and I feel nervous all of a sudden "You stopped talking when we arrived, you can continue." she sits beside Rosé and Lisa beside me.

"Did you come back to the group, Jisoo?" I pull my hand from his, which doesn't go unnoticed by Jisoo's watchful gaze.

"No" she laughs "Not really, I'm on vacation and I was invited to be the group's private doctor during that time."

"Jennie missed you so much, when we were dating, she always talked about you."

"I imagine." I feel Jisoo's ironic tone, but Kai doesn't seem to notice it. "But what were you talking about? I was curious." I kick Rosé's foot under the table and she raises an eyebrow at me.

"JiChu, are we going to the bathroom with me?" Rosé turns to Jisoo.

"I'll go with you, Chaeng!" Lisa gets up "I want to go to the bathroom too." I take a deep breath trying not to freak out.

"Good gurl" Jisoo says "Go ahead." Rosé gives me an 'I did what I could' look, but then Lisa pulls her out of the restaurant.

"So, Nini" out of the corner of my eye, I notice Jisoo's eyebrow rise in surprise "Like I was talking before" Kai clears his throat and tries to take my hand again, but I take the glass of water, trying to disguise my nervousness "I have I miss you so much. We broke up was a mistake, please let's try one more time?" he looks at me with such hope.

"Jongin, I understand you, but I think I made clear the reason for our breakup."

"Yes, you said you didn't love me anymore, not the same way I love you, but I didn't understand what made you change like that. We were fine, I was thinking about proposing." I see his cheeks blush and I choke on the water.

"You were going to ask Jennie to marry you?" Jisoo is totally shocked, just like me. "I didn't know you were so well."

"We were, more than fine" he sighs "But then Nini hurt her ankle, then she wanted to finish and I don't know what I lost in that time."

"Jongin, things change" I say impatiently and the two are staring at me now "I didn't want to change, but happened, unfortunately, there's nothing we can do and I'm really sorry about it, but that's life."

"But, Jen..." he starts to speak, but is interrupted by Chaelisa who return to the table, arguing about something.

"Sorry, but Lisa is pissing me off." Rosé folds her arms as she sits down.

"With what?" Jisoo chuckles softly.

"She keeps imitating my accent, repeating the things I say." She rolls her eyes.

"Nooooooorrrrrrrr" Lisa says and Jisoo laughs.

"Well I'm going back to the boys. I hope you think about what I said, Jen, please." He gets up and I sigh, rubbing my temples.

"What did we lose?" Lisa says quietly.

"Jongin wants to get back together with Nini." Jisoo emphasizes the last word and I roll my eyes.

"Wait, didn't you tell him you're with Jisoo?" Rosé looks at me in surprise and I bite my bottom lip.

"No." Jisoo says and looks away.

"I didn't expect him to show up here or that I had to tell him that at some point, I don't want him to feel like he was used or something."

"But Jen, you literally used him to try to forget about Jisoo." Rosé says this detail as if it were obvious "Maybe, deep down, even he knows and is trying to delude himself."

"I'm not going back with him and I don't think that who I'm with is anything anyone else's business." I cross my arms, getting irritated with this subject "Let's go, I'm tired."

"Right, but this conversation isn't over yet." Jisoo says in such a serious tone, making me shiver and gets up, heading towards the exit.