Blossom - A poyhaz story

1. bölüm

The words echoed in both their heads for what it seemed like an eternity.

-What? -Poyraz asked her with an indecipherable expression.

-I'm pregnant.

More silence.

-Are you sure? -he finally said.

-Yes. I have the test results if you want to see them. -Haziran replied, opening and looking inside her purse.

-There's no need. I believe you... -she stopped her search- Did you go to see a doctor then? -he added after some seconds, still with a poker face.

-Not yet. I just had a blood test taken to check if I was really pregnant after the home tests. I needed to decide what to do about it as soon as possible.

-And what do you want to do? -he asked, holding his breath.

-I want to keep it. -she stated straight away in a decisive tone.

Oxygen expanded again in Poyraz's lungs as a new emotion filled all of him. Haziran thought she caught a glimpse of it in his eyes but he immediately pulled himself together. He was an expert in doing that and she hated it when it came to him not showing his real feelings towards her.

-Okay, we'll keep it.

-Poyraz, look, I understand this is not ideal after what happened between us...

-Haziran. -he interrupted her. Oh, maybe him calling her name wasn't that bad after all. It reminded her of the good times when she was starting to fall for him and hearing it made her feel weak on her knees and safe at the same time- If you want to keep it, then that's what we'll do. I support you.

She felt her body relax a bit and humidity reaching her eyes. She needed to hear that.

-Thank you. -she said in a soft voice.

-You don't need to thank me. It's both our responsibility. -he assured her with a grave face.

-Yeah, I guess it's true condoms are not 100 % effective, right? -she tried to joke but that didn't make either of them feel less awkward, maybe even the opposite. Poyraz spoke again after some seconds.

-You tell me you haven't seen a doctor then... -he said, nervously touching his hair.

-Nope, I was hoping to get an appointment here as soon as possible. I need to know everything is going well.

-You could have just called me from İzmir... Thank you for coming here.

-It's not something you can tell by the phone. Well, at least not me. I needed to tell you in person. -they stared at each other's eyes intensely, lots of mixed feelings rushing into their heads.

-Well, thank you anyway. I'm sure you weren't exactly eager to see me.

-This is more important. -she retorted, ignoring the implied reference to them parting.

-Yes, you are right... So, how are you feeling? -he added a few moments later.

-I'm alright. A little fatigued. But I don't have any strong symptoms if that's what you're asking. I'm taking care of myself.

Poyraz wanted to tell her that he was asking how she was mentally and emotionally speaking, but he refrained himself, feeling that he didn't have the right to do so after the way he had ended things with her.

-Good. -he curtly said instead.

-I will go to the hospital tomorrow and try to get an appointment as soon as possible. -she explained.