Atrocious

Chapter-8

Kim Jong kook POV
It has been one week since Ji hyo was gone . He can't sleep or eat , he can 't concentrate in work , just like he is just breathing but not living . He looks around whenevre he was outside and saw many couples making lovey dovey things and he was broken inside because of this beautiful scene . Just like he is losing his one and only soul . He miss her more than life just like the song from Ghost of justin bieber.  He didn't hear anything about her for one week , and these seven days was like a hell to him . He sigh , he then went to the running man shooting , the first shooting without his love . He stood there with a tiny smile on his face for the sake of the show . Everyone knows about his mood so they didn't bring much his name . He stood there watching others play and laugh when haha and se chan joke . He stood there watching people moving like a status . On their break , haha came to him

"Hyung , you ok ?" He asked and Jong kook sigh . How can he be ok ? When the love of his life cut her contact with them , no message , no phone call . How can he be ok ?

"I don't know , haha yah . I don't know how to answer your question !! I felt like I am dying but I am still breathing . I miss her haha yah. " Jong kook said . Haha is his best friend and his brother.  He knows everything about him , he know his dilemma .

"She will contact us soon , hyung . Maybe she really need time herself . So ,don't worry . She will never leaves us like that ,hyung . She will never leave you like that , ok ? " Haha comfort him . He can't help but think about what haha said . Yes , Ji hyo never left them like that . There must be a reason for all of these drama . Why she need to leave the show ? Why she tried to run away like that ? Why ? There is a lot of questions start with 'why' in his head but he can't answer any of this . When the shooting start again , he put his mask again but his mind is racing to answer these questions . May be just like she said she need her time . But , he knew for Ji hyo over a decade . She will never leave the show even if she need her time . There must be something big behind this . He didn't know what that big is , he shake his head . When the shooting was over , they called him for a dinner but he denies with  he had a schedule early in the morning . He went back to his apartment . During the car drive , he tried to think hard about Ji hyo 's strange behavior during past months . What could it be ? He think , When he got his apartment , he unlocked his apartment and went into the kitchen , he opened his refrigerator and took out a water bottle . He brings himself to the living room , and suddenly his eyes landed to the bag that is placed on his sofa . Then , he remembered , he still didn't give back Ji hyo's back . He went and pull up the zip . Well , he need to find something that can answer his questions , so it would be inappropriate but he had to do this . He saw the staff she used but something caught his attention , it is a dairy book . He opened and start reading .  He didn't know that ji hyo had this amazing writing . He read everything she write in the dairy but something caught his attention ,

"I don't know whether I should tell him or not , I always love him since the first time I laid my eyes on him but for now ... there is no chance of us can be together ... today I went to the hospital and ... they said that I am at my last stage of brain tumor ... I don't know what to do ... but I decided to do the things I wanted to do during this one year ... Yes , I only have one year to saty ... I am afraid of leaving those people I love ... I am afraid of leaving him ... But I can't tell him or them either , I don't want them sad because of me ... I don't want oppa feel sad because of me ... The only thing I regret is that I didn't tell him about my feeling ... So let me tell him from this dairy ... I love you , oppa , my Jong kook oppa ..." Jong kook closed the book and tears streaming from his eyes uncontrollably . She had brain tumor and she didn't want us to know . Why? Ji hyo yah , why? He put his hand on his face  ... She love him ... She said she love him in this dairy but ... she is nowhere ... she is nowhere to be seen ... NO , he can't let it happen , he will find her and said nonstop that how much he love her and beg her to saty and ... and they will spend their time together ... they will never be apart . He love her , he can't lose her . Please , god !! He cried and cried and cried . He regret , he regret for everything , for not telling his love for her , for not confessing , for not aways there for her , he regret everything . How can fate so cruel toward them!!

Hi everyone , stay healthy and have a field day . Love you all ❤️❤️