Our journey - The 100 imagine

Perverse instantiation (part 2) - 03x16

"She's brain dead." After our little trip to Luna didn't work out as we hoped, we went back to polis hoping we could put the flame in Ontari instead. Wrong again. Ontari's brains were crushed by Jaha to sabotage us and now she's brain dead. "Is the floor secure?" Leave it to Clarke to think about surviving first and ignore a brain dead person. "For now. Jaha and the guards are tied up in a bedroom", Bellamy answers her question. "And we destroyed the elevator and the ladder", I say proud of myself.

"Good. Then we have enough time for an ascension ceremony." Clarke looks directly at me and I'm afraid she has one of those crazy ideas again. "I'm not going to ascend. And neither is Ontari", I say confused. "We're not putting it in Ontari's head. We're putting it in mine." There we have it. Clarke's genius idea. "What? No, you're not putting the flame in your head!" I don't think she understands how dangerous it is. "I can if I'm connected to a nightblood, like Mount weather." She hesitates slightly before saying those last two words, probably still not over what happened there.

"No, there are too many variables", Abby says. Looks like she's as worried as I am. "Whatever you're doing, do it fast." Octavia comes barging in the throne room. "Why? What happened?" We all look at Octavia in confusion. "They are climbing."

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"We're all set", Abby says after adjusting the tubes in Clarke's arm. I watch from a distance, sitting on the ground and moping like I'm some child that didn't get his wish. Well, I don't care. I'm not watching Clarke's brains getting destroyed by the flame. Ontario's blood is flowing through the tube to Clarke and when she looks at me I see the nervousness in her eyes. Okay, maybe I should support her decisions no matter what. I get up an walk over to her, seeing the corners of her mouth twitch up in an almost smile.

I lay my hand in hers to comfort her. "It's going to be okay", I say softly. Abby hands the flame to Murphy. "Lean forward." Clarke's grip on my hand tightens and she nervously exhales. "Ascende superius." The flame comes alive and drills a hole in Clarke's neck. Immediately she starts screaming and moving in pain, then she suddenly falls silent. "Is she okay?", I ask an even worried Abby. "Her heart's racing." "Take it out!", I order Murphy but he doesn't do anything. "Take it out!", I yell harder. "No, no...not yet." Suddenly Clarke comes back, awake. "I know how to stop Alie. I have to take the chip."

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"So everyone knows the plan?" I look annoyingly at Pike. He clearly thinks he's still in charge. I think Octavia has enough of his shit too because she grabs her sword tighter and stands up to face him. "Octavia, I need to talk to you", I say, leading her to the hallway and away from Pike. "What do you need to talk about?" She twirls her sword in her hand. "You need to stop letting Pike get to you. I know he's annoying but we need him to fight Alie", I try to convince her. She nods and I turn to leave but she calls after me. "Wait."

Suddenly she kisses me on the lips. I hesitate at first but then I kiss her back and soon her hands are lost in my hair as I try to pull her closer. "What was that for?", I ask her as we break apart. "To feel something." I clear my throat awkwardly. I've never been good at dealing with people that feel broken. "We should focus on the fight now. I'll go check on Clarke", I say not daring to look at her. I glance at her lips one more time before turning back to the throne room.

"How is she?", I ask Abby as I look at Clarke. She looks so beautiful, even with the tubes in her arm and a small bloodstain that's dried up on her face. "There were some complications but we took care of it", she responds while looking at Murphy holding Ontari's heart. I nod and move my gaze back to Clarke. Abby clears her throat and turns to me. "I don't know what's going on with you two, but it's obvious that you still love her", she says. "It's hard to stop loving someone."

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Alie's people are almost through our blockade, so I grab my electrical guard stick tighter. The suspense is overwhelming and there's a tension thick as air. Finally, the blockade breaks and the first grounders come barging in. I crush someone's lungs with my stick and kick someone's stomach. Suddenly Kane begins fighting with Bellamy and a big grounder has Octavia pinned to the ground. I turn on the power of the stick as I walk towards her and shock the grounder. We look eachother in the eyes for a moment before someone grabs me from behind. I fall to the ground and I realise it's Jaha who's now punching me in the ribs. I cough involuntarily while my lungs struggle to get air. 

I look aside from me and see Kane almost suffocating Bellamy, Emori who's facing Murphy and Jackson who's ready to get killed by Abby to get the flame as Jaha's still kicking me. Suddenly the fighting stops and I hear cries of pain as everyone seems to remember again. I slowly stand up, wincing, and look over at Clarke while Abby removes the flame. We share a light smile before I walk over to Octavia. Just when I'm about to say something, she stabs Pike with her sword. He falls dead to the ground as Octavia walks through the door.