Who Will I Choose? 21+

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"It will.. just give it time" Hoseok said

"When?" I asked

"When you lease expect it" Namjoon said

"That's what I've been waiting for that. But it's never happened yet. The time is taking longer than I expected" I said

"Just wait" Jungkook said

How can time give me my answer? In the end I'll still be hurt. I just want to have the answer figured out already.

"My head hurts" I said

"Rest.. you'll feel better in the morning" Hoseok said

I nodded

One by one the boys left. Leaving me and Jungkook alone in his hotel.

"Tay, my fear is being rejected. You know my past and the shit I have done. And I regret it all. It took me time to change me. I got rejected a bunch of times. And till the day it still scares me. No matter what happens. We are still going to be okay with the outcome of it all. It's life... we each have a fear. But we conquer it in the end" Jungkook said

I laid my head on his shoulder. Jungkook grabbed my hand and intertwined our fingers together. Rubbing the palm of my hand with his thumb.

"I love you tay" he said

"I love you too" I said

I can feel jungkook smiling. He planted a sweet kiss on my head.

"I'll always love you and that will never fade. My heart beats for you. Yes, there are times that I wish you would chose me. But I know I have to wait. I don't want to rush you" he said

I lifted my head and stared into his doe eyes. I see the sparkle in them. Yet I see my reflection. A weak girl..dying inside.

"Why am I weak?" I asked

"Your not.. your far from that.  Your a strong person. And that's what I love about you. But, you can't do stuff to hurt yourself just to numb the pain. That won't solve anything.. it will just make matters worse. It won't help. And I'm afraid I'll loose you" he said

"That's my fear" I said

"What?" He asked

"Loosing.. failure" I said

"We all have that. It makes us human and who we are today. But we get through it. The pain will aside and you'll be happy. But you have to fight for it. Not just let it slip through your fingers" Jungkook said

Jungkook was right

I got up and straddled my legs around his sides. Looking deeply in his eyes. I did see the strong side of me but yet the weak side. They were fighting. Which to take over the other.

"How and when will I decide?" I asked

Jungkook moved his hand to my chest. His hand on my heart.

"When this is ready... it will tell you what you need, feel and want" he said

I bit my lip

"Don't do that Tay. You know what that does to me" Jungkook said

⚠️ Warning Smut ⚠️

I started grinding myself on him. Jungkook's hands gripped my sides. His nails digging into my skin. Pressing me down harder as I grinded on his dick.

"Damn it tay" he said

I felt his dick getting harder each time. My heat was rubbing his cock through his sweatpants.