Spn Gabriel Imagines & Preferences

No More Tricks

You are Sam and Dean's younger sister and you're in love with Gabriel. And he with you. He 'dies' to protect you from Lucifer and he comes back during your time of grieving
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I fall to my knees at his side, already in tears and he looks up at me from his position on the floor. I let out a sob "Gabe, i-it's okay. You're gonna be fine, right? That didn't really hurt you... of course not. This is a trick, right-". He interrupts me "Y-Y/n, you're rambling, sweetheart". "Gabriel, please tell me this is a trick" I choke out. His lips twitch into the tiniest of smiles, then slowly shakes his head "No tricks this time, cutie". I frown "Gabriel, you can't leave me. Please, d-don't". He sighs heavily "It's okay, y/n. You can let go of me". I shake my head "No! I… I won't. I can't… Gabe, I need you". "Shh, it's okay" He hushes me. More tears stream down my cheeks, and land on his jacket, quickly dissolving into the material. "I can't let you die" I whisper. He weakly reaches up, and despite his calloused fingers, he gently brushes some of my tears away "Please don't cry for me, cutie. Everything's gonna be okay. Believe me, I am not worthy of any of the tears you shed". I stay quiet, shaking my head as more tears fall "Gabey… please don't leave me". He sighs "I'm sorry, cutie". And with that, his eyes finally close and his shallow breaths stop. I hold him close to me, sobbing into his jacket. "Gabe" I mumble, and for the first time ever, he doesn't respond. In that moment, I find myself surrounded by the shadow of his wings. My brothers stare sadly from behind me at the sight before them.
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Five years later

The death of Gabriel hit me hard and I've never really been the same after it. I still wear his jacket every day, for one thing. My brothers were concerned about my mental health, but I just wanted the pain to go away. I loved him, needed him… I still do. And of course, I can't really blame him. Being dead and all. It still hurts to even hear his name. I walk into the war room, where my brothers are sitting and I sit down with them. "Morning, y/n. Sleep well?" Sam asks. I shrug "Can't complain". Dean then reaches over the table to take my hand. I look at him weirdly, then at Sam who gives him a look. Dean shrugs back in their silent conversation. Then they both turn to me and I know something's up. "What is it?" I ask. Dean sighs, rubbing his thumb over my knuckles like he always does "Y/n, this isn't going to be easy for us to say. Or for you to hear. But we love you and we want you to know". I raise an eyebrow "Know what?". I look at Sam for an explanation and he gives me one. "Y/n… we think Gabriel might still be alive" He says slowly. I flinch from hearing his name, but frown "What? N-No, he can't be. Why would you think that?". Dean squeezes my hand "I'm so sorry, y/n. Cas thinks he saw him and he's out looking for him. That's what he's been doing for the last few days". I shake my head "No… it's not possible. H-He said it wasn't a trick! He promised me!". "I'm sure there's a reasonable explanation" Sam tries to calm me. "If he's alive and doesn't have a good enough reason, he'll be getting the ass kicking of a lifetime. Archangel or no, no one hurts our baby sister and gets away with it" Dean replies.

A few days later

I sit up in bed from hearing the sound of wings fluttering. It's familiar enough to me that I know it's Cas. It's late at night and my brothers are in the library, researching. I went to bed. But what caught my attention was the second flutter of wings, indicating that there is more than one.
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Third POV 

"Where's y/n?" Cas asks, walking into the library. "She's sleeping, why? What's wrong?" Dean replies. The angel ignores his question, but nods "Good". He looks back at the doorway and someone slowly steps into the brother's line of vision. Dean stands up protectively "Well, you better have a damn good explanation or this time you will stay dead". Gabriel raises his hands in surrender "Alright, I get it. I do have a reason, just hear me out". Sam sighs "Start explaining then". Gabriel exchanges a look with Cas, then sighs "Just so you know, I didn't want this to happen. If I had a choice, I never would've done what I did. And I know that means nothing to you. I had a plan, I had it all set up. My dear brother showed up, just like I knew he would. But I didn't think he would stab me. So, I guess that's on me for poor judgement. Anyway, he stabbed me and I was dying. I would've happily let myself die then, if it meant keeping your sister safe. It hurt hearing her cries for me. I faked my death to protect her. I knew that if I had died, then Lucifer would've gone after her. And if I faked my death, it meant that I could still protect her from him. But if he knew I was still alive, he would kill all of you and take me to hell to torture me. Either way, he would've killed her and I couldn't live with myself if I let that happen. I know I hurt her, but I would much rather her be alive and mourning me, than watch her die at the hands of my brother". Sam and Dean look at each other and sigh. "Okay, you've made your point and we appreciate you protecting her, but she's hurt badly, man. She's still hurting. I don't know if we can forgive you for that" Dean sighs. Gabriel shrugs "I didn't expect you to. I don't forgive myself either".

Y/n's POV

I hear multiple voices talking, but one stands out more than the rest. Even though it's all muffled. I play with the zip on his jacket that I'm wearing. I quietly walk out of my room and make my way to the library. My eyes widen when I hear the familiar sound of his voice. I stand at the doorway and cross my arms over my chest. Sam, Dean, Cas and… Gabriel. I frown, so it was a trick. He lied to me. "G-Gabriel?" I speak up, my voice sounding weaker than it meant to. All four of them turn to look at me. Cas has a slightly guilty expression on his face, my brothers tense up. Meanwhile, Gabriel is the only one to remain as he was. As if he was waiting for this to happen. He looks at me sadly, then sighs before starting to walk over to me. However, I move away from him when he gets close enough. He falters in his step, a hurt look on his face. But he lets me have my space. "Y/n, I-" He starts, but I cut him off "No! No, you're not. Don't you dare say that if you don't mean it. You lied to me! You promised me it wasn't a trick!". He opens his mouth to speak, but then closes it as if it was the wrong thing to say. "Please, y/n. Just let me explain" He tries. I shake my head "No". I turn away from him and go back to my room. Where I let my tears out.

Third POV

Gabriel sighs, watching her walk away from him. Then he turns to the boys, remembering they are still there. He shrugs awkwardly "Well, I guess I was wrong. I'd much rather die than see her like that".
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A few days later, y/n's POV

I sit on the grass under a tree with a sigh. Knowing he's back is strangely comforting. But I'm still mad at him. I close my eyes, leaning my head against the tough tree bark. I frown, why didn't he just tell me he was alive? Or at least give me a sign. That way, it wouldn't have hurt so much and I would know he's okay. I was so lost in my thoughts that I didn't even notice him appear in front of me until he spoke. "Hi, cutie" He sighs, making me look at him "Don't call me that". This time, he sighs heavier before sitting down with me. I don't try to move away. "Y/n, please let me explain what happened. I know I hurt you, but I need to tell you. So I don't go insane. If you don't like it, then fine, you don't have to see me ever again. And I won't bother you anymore" He tries. I look at him "What makes you think I'll listen?". He shrugs "Well, you're still here. And… you're wearing my jacket". I blush lightly, but I don't let him see it "Okay... fine".

"Y/n, I had a plan to defeat my brother, Lucifer. I was going to stop him. He showed up, just like I knew he would. But the plan went to hell when he stabbed me. That's on me though, poor judgement. Anyway, I just want you to know that none of this would've happened if I had a choice. Y/n, Lucifer would've killed you. I needed to fake my death to protect you. No words can explain how much it hurt me to see you crying over me. That's why I tried to get you to stop, because I knew there was no point in you wasting your tears over a fake death. I didn't want to hurt you, but I couldn't live with myself if I let him kill you" He explains.

I frown, tears pricking at the corners of my eyes "Why didn't you just tell me you were alive? Or, at least showed me". He gently cups my cheek and I reluctantly let him. "I'm so sorry, cutie. If he knew I was alive, he'd kill you just to get to me. He knows how much you mean to me, I couldn't risk it. I needed to keep you safe from him" He replies quietly. "I needed you, Gabe… and you weren't there" I mumble. He nods "I know, sweetheart. I know, I'm so so sorry. I will spend the rest of my life making it up to you, if you let me. I love you, y/n. And I know you still love me". "Gabe, I… I do love you. And I'll let you make it up to me on one condition" I tell him. He nods "Anything, name it". "Please, no more tricks" I sigh. "Done. I promise, no more tricks, cutie" He replies softly.

I move closer to him so I can wrap my arms around his neck. "I missed you so much" I mumble, breathing in his sweetly comforting scent. He returns my hug, resting his chin on my shoulder "I missed you too, sweetheart". I sigh in content "This doesn't mean I forgive you, you know". He nods "I know". I feel him gently kiss my shoulder. I move closer to him, burying my face into the crook of his neck. Then the tears start. "It hurt so much, Gabey" I sob. He rubs my back soothingly and kisses my head "I know, cutie. I'm so sorry, I didn't want to hurt you, baby. This was never my intention". He pulls away slightly to gently wipe my tears away with the pad of his thumb. "I love you, y/n" He whispers to me. "I love you too, Gabriel" I mumble.
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- W.S.