Loved By A Gangster: Pains Of the Past (Book 2)

Chapter 45: Against All Odds

**Cahriya's POV

    Gusto kong kumawala sa yakap niya. Gusto ko siyang itulak pero hindi ko magawa. Gusto ng isip ko pero hindi  sumusunod ang katawan ko. Ang tanging naigagalaw ko lang ay ang mga kamay ko na mahigpit na nakahawak sa tuwalyang tumatakip sa buong katawan ko. Alam kong anumang oras ngayon ay kayang-kaya niyang hilain ito.

   Parang tumayo lahat ng balahibo ko dahil sa ginawa niyang pag-haplos sa mga braso ko. Nanlalambot na ang mga tuhod ko. Feeling ko anytime pwede akong matumba. Bakit ba ganito mag-response ang katawan ko? Bakit hindi man lang ako umaangal?

   Bigla niya akong iniharap sa kanya. Ngayon kitang-kita ko ang itsura niya. There is something in his eyes that tells me how he really needs me.

   And as he leans closer the faster my heart beats. I want to turn my head the other way but my head is not cooperating. Is this really happening now?

   His lips sealed mine for the nth time. His touch are wondering my shoulders, my arms, and then he squeezes my hand. I thought it's over when he stop but that's just my thought. Nagsisimula palang siya.

    He look straight into my eyes. As if he's asking my permission. I don't know what to do. I don't know if it's right. I just don't know...

   I look down. I can't look into his eyes. It scares me to look. I'm scared that if I continue looking into his damn eyes, I will no longer have enough control to myself.

"I'll be gentle. I promise."

   He held up my chin and look into my eyes. His eyes are burning with desires. Those desires that I can no longer resist as he started kissing me again. Slowly and gently.

   His hands are on my back pulling me closer to him. I cling my arms around his neck. I surrender.

  I remember that we used to almost did this a lot back then but I refuse because I don't want us to get there like what he's been doing with his past playmates.

  But to refuse and stop this now is not in my mind. I admit, I always want to feel him. I want to feel his touch, his breathe through my skin and the sensation he can do. I've been longing for those.

   I was a bit startled when he lifted me up. He placed my legs around his waist while my arms are around his neck. Our lips never parted their ways. He pinned my back against the wall. My body started moving up as his kisses became more agressive. His hands are squeezing my thighs and slowly caressing it until it reach the end of the towel covering my body.

   I thighten my cling into his neck as the towel is slowly getting off my body. He removed it. He finally did. My naked body is now pressing against his dressed torso.

   He hugged me tight and then we started moving. We're moving towards the bed. He laid me down when we reached the soft cussion of our love nest. He stops kissing me. He sat down in front of my naked torso and glaze his eyes all over me.

"You're a goddess!" He said with a stunned look on his face. As if it is the first time he saw my body.

"This is not the first time you saw my gorgeousness, mister." I smirked.

   That first time was in that hotel when he said that he raped me. But this jerk was just making up a story.

"No, I didn't. I did not look in to your body that time. I closed my eyes because I don't want to disrespect you as a woman. And as the woman I love."
   I was speechless. All this time I thought he took advantage of looking in to my body that time though nothing really happened to us.