Lies // DNF

North Carolina

I walked out of the airport and waited for Karl to pick me up. He texted me he was here. I walked towards his car. It was already 9pm. I put my suitcase in the backseat and sat in the front.

"Hey.." Karl said as he began to drive.

"Hey"

"You okay?" (Karl)

"Yeah it was my fault anyways, I don't have the right to be sad. I just have to move on" I said as I looked out the window.

"George I don't want to be that person but are you okay? Like mentally...." Karl asked nervously.

"What is that supposed to mean"

That hurt.

"Um, Sapnap has been telling me about you and I just don't think..." He said before I cut him off.

"Of course it was Sapnap" I said angrily.

"I AM FINE" I shouted.

I quickly covered my mouth. I didn't mean to yell. Karl was silent. He just kept driving.

"Karl...I am so sorry" I said as I removed my hands from my mouth.

"It's...fine" Karl said as he just looked at the road.

The rest of the drive was silent. We arrived at Karl's house. He took me inside. Still not a single word said. He went to the kitchen. I left my suitcase in the living room and followed him. He had seats at his kitchen island. I sat down.

"Karl.." I said to break the silence.

He grabbed a water and handed me one.

"I am not okay" I said as I sighed.

He stood across from me and laid himself on the counter.

"Do you want to talk about it?" (Karl)

I was silent. Do I?

"I...feel useless" I said as I opened the water bottle.

"I feel like I am not here to serve a purpose. I am here for others, for the people I stream for, for my friends, and nothing else. Everything has gone wrong in life. I feel alone. I came on this trip for Dream and in hopes of finding...me" I said as I took a deep breath and took a sip of water.

"I feel you, I was like that. I never wanted to get out of bed, everything was going wrong, I didn't even feel like I was me. I was alone" Karl said as he came towards me and hugged me.

"Karl...I thought about it. If I was just cut from this world" I said ashamed.

Karl hugged me tighter.

"That isn't that answer. George why didn't you come to anyone for help" Karl said as held me close.

"I thought I could do it on my own. I was wrong. Really wrong" I said as tears began to form.

"Karl I can't have anything for myself. Everything I do is documented online. I can't have a love life. I can't go out with family. I can't be anywhere alone. And forget having any female friends"

"Everything I do is for the sake of others, sometimes I wish I haven't even started the whole streaming thing. It would have saved me from all these....STUPID FEELINGS I HAVE. EVERYTHING I DO IS LIKE BASED ON WHAT WILL OTHERS THINK. I HAD TO ASK MYSELF IF I SHOULD EVEN GO OUT AND GET GROCERIES. I AM IN CONSTANT FEAR OF LETTING ANYONE DOWN AND THE ONE TIME I TRY TO SAY MY FEELINGS I END UP LOSING MY...best friend" I said as I began to cry.

"George, I can't let you go home" Karl said as he let go of me.

"I am scared for you" he said as he sighed.

I laid my head on the counter. I was crying uncontrollably. I lost everything. I lost my best friend. What is the point of anything I do now.

Time Skip

It was 10pm. Karl and I have been talking and just relaxing. He has made me feel better.

"I have no furnished rooms with beds or anything so do you just want to sleep on the couch?" Karl said as he got up from the couch.

"Sure"

"Alright I will be right back" Karl said as he walked away.

My phone began to ring. It was Sapnap. I picked it up.

"Hello?"

"GEORGE"

"Hey Sapnap"

"How are you doing?"

"Really good actually"

"That's good"

I heard a door shut from his side of the call.

"Aren't you going to sleep?" Sapnap said in a weird voice.

"Yeah, Karl is going to bring me some blankets"

"Wait what? Him?! What are you doing all the way over there?"

"Huh? Why won't you just say his name?" I said confused.

"Who are you on the phone with?" I heard Dream say.

Oh that's why.

"Karl" (Sapnap)

"Oh, any sign of George?" Dream said in a depressing tone.

"Any sign of George...Karl um any sign of him?" (Sapnap)

"Sapnap I don't want to hear him right now...I will text you later" I said as I took a deep breath.

"Oh okay, he said no, I will text you later" he said so Dream could hear.

"Love you" Sapnap said as he giggled.

I hung up.

"Okay so I only have these blankets if that's okay" Karl said as he came back with blankets.

"That's fine" I said as I stood up and grabbed the blankets.

"I am going to make a call to cancel tomorrow's stream, do you want to hang out tomorrow instead?" Karl said as he pulled out his phone and unlocked it.

"Why are you going to cancel the stream?"

"Well you are here and you don't seem to be...George right now" Karl said as he went on his contacts.

"No stream Karl"

"But-" Karl said before I cut him off.

"Stream Karl I will be fine" I said as I smiled.

"Okay..." he said as he turned off his phone.

"I am fine really" I said as I placed the blankets on the couch.

"Okay, I am going to stream around noon, you can just chill in the living room, just don't try to loud because then chat is going to realize someone is at my house" He said as he giggled.

"I want to stream with you" I said as I took a deep breath.

"Really?" Karl said excitedly.

I nodded my head. He hugged me.

"This is going to be fun" he said as he stopped hugging me.

"Yup" I said as I smiled.

I hope...