Lies // DNF

Homophobic

"Clay was it?" Abby said awkwardly.

Dream looked up from his phone. He nodded as a response.

"How long have you guys been roommates" She said as she did some kind of weird smile.

We are all in the living room. Me and Dream were on the couch texting each other about how awkward it is.

"Um, not sure, it was supposed to be a visit but now he lives with me so" Dream said as he looked at Sapnap.

Dream texted me.

"This is so awkward" he texted.

"Ikr"

"So George..." Abby said as she turned to me.

"Yeah?" I said as I turned off my phone.

"Do you have a girlfriend? You seem to be texting a lot" Abby said as she chuckled.

There was a very awkward silence.

"Abby.." Dream said trying to hold in. his laugher.

"He is gay Abby" Sapnap said awkwardly.

"Oh" she said in a weird tone, she had a sort of disgusted face.

"That's...nice" she said hesitantly as she scooted away from me.

Dream and I looked at each other. We both had the same thought. I turned on my phone.

"Why did she say it like that?" Dream texted.

I looked at him and shrugged.

"I...should get going...I have to.... feed my cats" She said as she stood up.

Dream looked at me, he looked like he was going to start laughing. I signaled him to calm down. We all stood up. Abby and Sapnap hugged. She awkwardly hugged Dream. She came up to me. She just sort of stared. I leaned in for a hug. She hesitantly hugged me. It was the quickest hug I have ever had. She dusted off her clothes, right after.

Sapnap led her out. As soon as they were both out of sight Dream laughed.

"She was definitely homophobic" Dream said as he laughed.

"Yeah" I said a little hurt.

Dream stopped laughing.

"George...there is nothing wrong with-" (Dream)

"Yeah I know you don't need to give me a whole speech about how I should be proud of who I am" I said as I sighed.

Dream opened his mouth to talk but didn't. He was silent. Sapnap came back. He sighed.

"George I am sorry for what just happened" Sapnap said as he sat next to me.

"It's not your fault"

"If I had known I would have never invited her" Sapnap said as he groaned.

"What was she doing here in the first place?" Dream said in an angry tone.

"It was a girl I met and I thought she was pretty...and she sort of liked me..." Sapnap said as he sighed.

Every word after that was drowned out by my inner thoughts. She didn't want to hug me. She didn't want to touch me. She dusted herself off after we hugged. I don't even know her but why does it hurt. It hurts badly. I am proud of who I am but sometimes I think, how would it be if I was normal? I would have never met Ace and all of my problems would have vanished. Right? Normal...sounds nice.

My phone began to ring. I quickly grabbed it. It was Karl. I answered it.

"Hello?" I said in a dull voice.

"HEY GUESS WHAT"

"What?"

"Wait are you okay? You sound odd"

"Yeah yeah I am fine"

"I HAVE A SURPRISE"

"Oh what is it?"

"You will see"

Karl hung up.

"What happened?" Sapnap asked.

"It was Karl"

"Oh nice" he said as he turned on his phone and turned it off.

"He hasn't texted you?"

"No, I am starting to get a little worried, last time we texted was when we were looking for houses" Sapnap said as he sighed.

There was a knock at the door.

"I will get it" Sapnap said as he put his phone away.

I sat down on the couch.

"Don't be sad :(" Dream texted.

"I don't like it when u r sad :( ily" he texted.

I smiled at the message.

"GEORGE" I heard Karl scream.

I quickly stood up. Karl ran towards me and hugged me.

"I missed you" he said as he let go.

"I missed you too" I said as I smiled.

I looked over and Sapnap was rolling Karl's suitcase to the guest bedroom. I was still thinking of being normal. What even is normal. What if I was just yk into girls. My Ace problems just poof, gone. All the problems I had with Dream, gone. But all my feelings for Dream...

"George, you okay?" Karl said as he looked at me.

"No, can we talk?" I said as I glanced at Dream.

He looked worried. I looked back at Karl.

"Let's go outside" he said as he smiled.

I nodded and followed him outside to the backyard. We sat down next to the pool.

"Now tell me what's wrong" Karl said relaxed.

I looked at my reflection in the water. I looked up at the glass door and saw Dream. He was on his phone. He looked upset. I sighed and took a deep breath.

"I feel odd, I feel weird, I don't feel normal. I had always thought I was comfortable and open with myself but I don't know. The people I know, accept me. Others just don't, some are just disgusted by me. I am human too, I have feelings" I said as I broke down.

"I feel like once they know I am gay, it's like their whole perspective is changed. They only thing that is changed is my preference. Just because I am gay doesn't mean I am not different from anyone. I get treated as if me liking the same sex is a disease" I said as I sniffled.

"I can see their eyes on me, when I dated Ace, those eyes were always on us. I felt ashamed at first. He taught me to embrace my sexuality. I did. He is a bad guy but some things he told were true. Do I love him still? Absolutely not, he had some positives but a lot of negatives, I just had to move on. Karl, I feel like I get treated so much different. Even if they accept me, I get treated a little different. Even the small changes make big differences" I said as I sighed.