For Our Parent's Sakes (Phanfiction)

Chapter 15

I'm writing this listening to my music which consists of taylor swift MCR 5SOS Into The Woods soundtrack and 1D so yeah. . . (don't be a dick about Zayn thanks) Also trigger warning!!!

His voice was a familiar sound, his hands in my hair. When we've had our last kiss I beg him for something that I know he can't deliver.

"Say you'll remember me, in this moment, forever. No matter what happens." He shakes his head and presses his lips gently to my forehead.

"I'm so sorry, Lester. . ."

~*~

"Dan Howell get your arse back in this classroom!" Mr. Ford yelled. Dan blushed and gave me a sad look, but I smiled at him letting him know it was fine. Lately we had been walking together after class along with Tyler. It was nice.

"Why are you friends with him again?" Tyler asked.

"Things change, and he did. He explained what happened."

"How do you know he didn't lie?" I shrugged and scratched the back of my neck.

"I don't, I just trust him I guess."

"I get it."

"You do?"

"No."

~*~

"He barely takes you out, if he does he's late. Plus, when the check comes he always makes you pay! I'd never do that, just saying," Dan insisted.

"Tyler is fine! Believe me, you're just overreacting," I explained.

"Are you sure?" I giggled and sat next to him.

"Yes, and if I didn't no any better I'd think you were jealous." Dan blushed and shook his head.

"N-No way Phil."

"I'm only joking!" He sighed in relief and took my hand in his own.

"Okay." I squeezed his hand as he did it to me.

"Does Tyler ever do this?" He asked. I shrugged and moved my hand from his.

"Sometimes, but he mainly does this." I pressed my lips gently to Dan's cheek and I heard his breath hitch.

"Oh," He mumbled. I smirked and stood up.

"Can we get a snack?" Dan looked surprised but nodded.

"Yeah,

~*~

Dan laughed as we walked down the road.

"No Phil, it isn't true!"

"April Fools!" Dan smirked and pushed my side.

"That's not for another month and a half." I giggled and cut through the bushes.

"I'm planning ahead."

"Speaking of which, Emma is having a Valentine's party, you should come. A date is required." I laughed, it was typical of her.

"Are you her date?" Dan nodded and groaned.

"She's such a bitch."

"What? I thought you were together!" Dan shrugged and pulled some leaves off a tree.

"No, she just thinks we are. It's quite annoying, if I'm being honest." I nodded and took Dan's hand in my own.

"I get it." The small action seemed to surprise Dan, causing him to stop walking.

"We can't- I mean- never mind." Dan pulled away his hand but I took it back.

"No one will know, we are literally in the woods." We both laughed and he walked closer to me.

"I suppose."

~*~

"Tyler, can you be my date to Emma's valentine's party? Dan invited us." He nodded and kissed my cheek gently.

(Fucking quick change Dan P.O.V. for one sentence lolzor)

I see him with Tyler, slowly kissing, and it's tearing me apart because he doesn't see.

~*changes back to phil*~

Dan was staring at us, and it made me feel guilty. Why did he seem so sad.

"Dan, are you okay?" I asked as I walked up, Tyler behind me. He nodded and leaned back against his locker, pulling out his notebook and writing in it.

"Yeah, totally." I nodded and told Tyler secretly to leave us alone for a moment.

"What are you writing?" Dan looked nervous, but then sighed.

"Can I tell you a secret?" My heart sped up. He trusted me.

"Of course, anything."

"I write poems in here, well, more like little splurges of poem." He didn't think his writing was good, even though it was amazing.

"That's cool, I wish I was a good writer." Dan giggled and finished writing.

"Believe me, I'm terrible."

"I bet you're great. Can I read one?"

"The day we fall in love you can."

"So never?" Dan looked defeated and hung his head low.

"Yeah, never."

~*~

"You're broken and worthless! Get out!" The harsh words echoed from the Howell's home. I was going over to get homework from Dam but I assumed now was not the time. Dan erupted from the house in tears and blood on his wrists.

"Dan-" I began. He shook his head and sunk down onto the floor.

"I don't know what to do," He cried. I helped him up and took his hand.

"I'll help you." We walked in silence besides his occasional sniffle.

"F-Fuck, my notebook. What if they read it?" I shook my head and pressed my lips to the back of his hand.

"They won't, it's okay."

When we got to my house I quickly ran Dan to the bathroom and turned on cold water.

"Okay, take off your shirt. It's filthy." Dan was hesitant at first, but he was gorgeous. There was not one flaw anywhere. I shook away the thoughts and placed Dan's wrists under the water. He hissed at first but soon enough relaxed.

"Phil, I swear, that was the first time I did that." I nodded and started dabbing the cuts gently.

"It's okay, I understand." Dan nodded and stopped shaking slightly. I turned off the water and put bandages on his wrists.

"Would you like a t-shirt or a jumper?"

"Jumper please." I took him into my room and handed him a jumper which he gladly took.

"Can I have a piece of paper?" I handed him one and he quickly scribbled down something then shoved the paper away in his pocket.

"Better?" He sniffled and nodded. I wrapped my arms around him and he hugged me back. Right now felt pretty good. If only it wasn't initiated because he hurt himself.

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