Finding a Way to You (Book One of The Finding Series, going through revision)

Chapter 11

(A/N) Hey my lovlies! This is the second part of chapter 11. I don't know if I will be able to update again this week because of work! Love you all!! Thank you for all the reads!

 

Becca's POV

I got out of the hospital yesterday, and I  am staying with Rachel and her mom till I get back on my feet.

Jamie has called every day wondering how I am. I always tell Rachel to tell him I'm busy or just sleeping.

This weekend is the Youth Conference at Hope Assembly of God, and to be honest I don't want to go.

Rachel keeps telling me over and over again that I need to go, so to shut her up about this whole God thing, I'm going.

I have firmly decided that I'm atheist. Where was God when I needed him? He wasn't there when I was crying on the inside, well still crying.

A slight rapping began on my door, getting louder at the minute."Becca?" Rachel called outside of the door.

"It's open, come in." I said while Rachel literally busted through the guest room, that I was staying in.

Rachel walked over to me, sighing greatly, she took one of my hands in her's.

She looked at the bandage that was on my pale colored limb.

The look on her face said it all, worry, concern, sadness, and fear. Rachel was the kind of person, that you could tell how she was feeling by the look in her eyes.Her blond hair tied up in a measly bun, with some loose curls framing her face. Her light grey eyes beaming into mine. Her eyes showed curiosity. I hadn't told her or anyone what happened at the hospital between Jamie and I. All she knows is that Jamie called her saying how he needed to go home. When she got to the hospital, she immediately began questioning me what happened. I couldn't tell her, I just couldn't. 

She huffed a sigh, and ran her perfect manicured fingers over my rugged locks, and looked deeply into my eyes.

"Bec's, I'm only asking this once more. What happened between you and Jamie? And don't start saying "Nothing happened" cause I know something did. I saw your face when I walked in that room. That face meant something did happen. The look you had, of slight embarrassment and how flushed it was, how your lips were slightly swollen. Now I have my ideas of what happened, but I need to know the truth." She looked at me, while my mouth was gaping open in shock. 

Was it really that obvious?

I took a deep breath and sighed heavily.

I gazed up into Rachel's eyes, so she could see that I'm being honest.

"He kissed me." I softly blurted out. Rachel's eyes widened. She even let out a little gasp.

Tears began to form and they started to cloud my vision, before I could do anything about them.

"He kissed you? What happened?" 

I laid my head back on the soft fluffy down pillow and replayed the memory in my mind as I told Rachel.

"Well, I had awoken from a dream, that I will tell you about later, and I looked over at him taking in his presence. He woke up a few minutes later and scooted his chair to me. He asked me how I slept and I said pretty good for being in a hospital bed, and he complained he has to sleep in a chair. So i brought up about him going home and getting some sleep and he just looked at me, gazing into my eyes. Then he just kissed me." She looked at me like she was waiting for me explain more.