Finding a Way to You (Book One of The Finding Series, going through revision)

Chapter 5

Jamie's POV

The next few days sped by fast. Curiosity overtook me, I needed to find out more about Becca. I was at the hospital visiting my dad while my mom was having a chemo treatment.

Being the sneaky person I am when I get determined, I walked into my fathers private office.

I walked around quietly trying not to get caught.

I walked over to his desk and saw the family photos displayed across them.

Three of my mother, a few of me, and the rest of my younger brother Matthew.

My tears threatened to break at the memory of him.

Matthew was six years younger than me. Me being eighteen that would make him twelve.  

He was the cutest kid anyone had ever seen. Everyone who met him fell in love with him. Too bad his life ended early.

He was short for an eight year old, with his piercing blue eyes and his skinny stature and his light brownish hair.

I'll never forget that day, mainly because it was my fault. My parents told me and they still do that its not, that it just happened and freak accidents happen.

It happened four years ago on a glorious Sunday, right after church.

Matti and I were goofing off in the front yard playing with a football. Our house was not too far from the street but close enough for this to happen. I remember like it was yesterday.

//Flashback///

"Matti, throw me the ball back." I yelled at my eight year old brother.

He looked at me smiling, showing a mouth full of teeth. "JJ, you'll have to come and get it. I'm not throwing it back." He said as he ran further into the yard. I ran up behind him, grabbing him into my arm pulling the football out of them.

"Okay, bud this one is gonna be far." I said stepping back throwing the ball to Matti, him missing the ball it landing in the street.

Before I knew what was happening Matthew ran into the street before I could stop him. He never made it to the ball on the other side of the road. The black Mercedes Benz cleanly ran him over before I could put myself in his place.

I ran up to him sobbing as I picked up his lifeless body. Tears from my eyes soaking his shirt. I screamed for my parents.

My mother ran out of the house turning completely pale. You could see her knees buckling.  

My father's face turned white as he saw what had happened. The car never even stopped.

I sobbed into Matthews hair, his blood all over me." Matti please forgive me! I'm sorry! Oh Matti! God why! Why not me! Take me God, not my brother!" I screamed out. It was getting harder to breath. I started to hear the sirens coming around the corner. The lights of the police cars flashing brightly.

I would never forgive myself ever.

//End of flashback///

Tears welled up at the memory of Matti. I miss him. As I was looking at the pictures of Matti, my eyes wondered to the file that sitting on my fathers desk reading Becca Lawson. I knew it was wrong but I was so intrigued by it that I picked it up dropped it to the floor so it would accidentally open. And it did that just that.

I picked it up so it would stay open. And I began to read.

Becca Lawson  

Seventeen 

5'9  

Brown eyes 

Lives on 1222 Clark Drive Chattanooga Tennessee 34256

I scanned back over her address, being tempted to write it down. I fought myself and gave in typing the address down in my phone.

I will visit her later. Her parents can't be that bad. Can they? 

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Becca's POV

That week had flew by. My nightmares grew worse. My mom had hit me more but dad had bought her flowers or something so it wasn't as bad as usual.

School wasn't that bad. In science they gave us this crazy project to do and it was like half of my grade. 

So I walked into my dad's office to look up the info for the bacteria that I had to research.

As I was looking for the info a file caught my eye on the computer, it said

EIGHT YEAR OLD BOY KILLED AFTER HIT AND RUN BY UNKNOWN DRIVER. FAMILY HEARTBROKEN. THE SERVICE FOR MATTHEW MATTHEWS WILL BE THIS WEEKEND AT HOPE ASSEMBLY OF GOD CHURCH AT ELEVEN. THE DRIVER NEVER STOPPED OR WAS NEVER FOUND

Why was this in my computer? I'm curious. Why would my dad have this on here?

I decided to call Rachel and see if she wanted to hang out cause I wanted to get my mind off what I just saw on the computer.

"Rachel, do you want to hang? I'm so bored on this lazy Saturday."

She chuckled a bit and then replied."Yeah, you want to go shopping? And maybe get some lunch?"

"Yeah that sounds great. And I want to talk about something I saw in the computer earlier. It was really weird. I wanted to know if you knew anything about it."

"Yeah, we can talk about it at lunch. Love you pretty cousin. I'll pick you up in a few. See you soon." She said hanging up.

My mind raced with the thoughts of what I saw. I needed to find out what my father is hiding.