No Hero: Lost Among the Flame

Catching up

Clarke

I walked away from the table to finally catch up with my mom. I wouldn't be gone for very long so Madi would be alright with the others. She may be a bit bias when it comes to Bellamy though. The stories Lexa told her about him were about how him and Freya didn't always get along. I tried to tell her the good ones too but she trusted everything Lexa told her. She still trusted Lexa like a commander. It wasn't a bad thing.

So I fully expect her to say something to Bellamy to piss him off. At least Raven will get a kick out of it.

"My room is right around the corner" My mom said leading me through the bunker. I watched each person we walked past. Few I recognized as Trikru but I didn't know any of them personally. Right around the corner turned into ten minutes of twists and turns. Only someone who's lived here for years would be able to navigate the entire bunker. "Here we are" she said holding the door open.

The two beds were pushed together to make a single larger one. There was one dresser in the corner and a wide table and two chairs on the other side of the room. I recognized a lot of my moms things decorating the room. I assumed the manlier things around the room belonged to Kane. They were not subtle about the beginning of their relationship and clearly it had not fizzled out.

I pulled out one of the chairs and sat at the table. "So I guess how have you been?" I asked unsure. We had bigger issues to take care of right now but they weren't going to be fix in one day. This time away I did truly miss her.

"Well it's been difficult I won't lie" she sighed sitting down. I waited a moment for her to cross her arms on the table. "It wasn't easy getting everyone to get along and work together but we've managed to work through it" she said.

"How did that happen?" I asked. Even though the clans were united in a coalition I doubted they would stay that way until anyones lead besides a commander. Especially not under a 'sky persons' leadership. Clearly when Octavia won the conclave it bought her some respect.

Abby shook her head and leaned back in her chair. "Once people understood Octavia wasn't weak they began to fall in line. Indra helped us keep everything organized" she explained in a roundabout way.

"What happened exactly? Everyone in this bunker is extremely tense like they are on the brink of war with Trikovakru" I squinted slightly.

"You don't want to hear about all of that right now. There will be plenty of time to talk about it later. Tell me about you" she deflected.

I let it slide even though it was very odd. No one wanted to talk about what exactly has happened. But sooner for later we'd all find out. "The valley is nice. Madi, Lexa and I have kept it alive while living there. Theres room for everyone to live there" I said. We typically stuck to the two cabins we lived int but we had hunting traps and fishing step up. After the fallout we had to adopt a few new ways of doing these things. It wouldn't take long for the people of the bunker to settle. The only issue would be who is in charge.

My mom hummed and seemed to dissect each word.

"Before that can happen we need this feud between Wonkru and Trikovakru to end. A truce at least. No one should have to live in this bunker anymore when theres a place on earth" I added hoping my message was reaching her.

"And what about the commander?" Abby asked.

I tilted my head to the side asking, "What about her?"

She smirked a little and drummed her fingers on the table. "You two are together aren't you? Spend over eight years with someone something has to have occurred" she said.

"No we're not, nothing has or ever will happen like that" I shook my head immediately. Our relationship was anything but romantic. We relied on each other to survive in the valley. That was when she wasn't away trying to dig out the bunker. My mom looked at me unconvinced. "Lexa is in love with Freya, that's never going to change" I deadpanned.

Aside from surviving with me I think Lexa still harbored dislike for me over my past physical relationship with Freya. Well, based on what she said to me this afternoon she defiantly does. I had to push back the sadness that came with thinking about my friend. Freya was a good friend who deserved to be happy. She didn't deserve what happened to her. Yet another subject no one would give details on.

"And how do you feel about Lexa?" she continued trying to push.

I sighed getting annoyed. "Mom just stop" I frowned.

"Okay okay" she raised her hands in mock surrender. "Freya was something" she added leaving the statement to hang between us.

Crossing my arms over my chest I waited to see if she would elaborate on it. When she didn't I asked, "I know you have always been skeptical about Freya but how was she?" Lexa's radio called never reached her. She died not knowing Lexa was alive.

My mom huffed and rolled her neck before sitting up straighter. "She struggled if I'm being honest. Anna tried everything to help her through her grief but Freya just couldn't get over it" she told me.

It made me think about my dad. She should know better than anyone about loosing someone you love. You don't just get over that.

"Well Lexa was the love of her life and she died" I said raising my fingers to make air quotes.

"I understand that, Clarke" she said. "It only got worse after Anna passed" she shook her head showing a glimpse of sadness. However, it was only for Anna.

I nodded, "She left Wonkru to form Trikovakru right after I know."

Abby huffed rolling her eyes. "Freya didn't just leave. Her and the people she convinced to defect slaughtered a hundred and twelve people" she said. Before I could say anything she continued, "That's more than the ark sent to the ground and the people she killed were innocent."

I swallowed the lump in my throat. "Octavia wasn't going to let her just leave to form a new clan. I may not know all the details but that much is obvious. And the people the ark sent to the ground were kids, most of which were only arrest for small crimes" I tried to argue.

Wonkru wasn't innocent, neither was Trikovakru.

"Clarke, my point is that Freya showed no one mercy. She was violent. I don't think you knew her as well as you think you did" she said further upsetting me.

"No I knew her. She didn't kill random people without a reason. You never gave her a chance. Even outside the mountain you tried to get rid of her when her crimes one the ark were suppose to be pardoned" I scuffed standing up.

She grabbed my wrist before I could reach for the door. This conversation with my mom was only upsetting me. My Friends were dead I didn't need to hear anyone tell me I didn't know them.

I glared at her and yanked my wrist out of her hand. "Clarke-" she started.

I cut her off, "No mom! I get that you have gone through a rough time in this bunker but these people are my friends. Freya kept me alive when you helped send us to the ground to die. And I wish that she was still here so I could repay her. And Lexa -she never gave up on getting in here."

"You're right I'm sorry. I shouldn't speak ill of the dead. Living in this bunker is like a fishbowl. Wonkru has been the only thing that's stopped the bloodshed. And -and when Trikovakru form it started all over again" she apologized.

Brushing my hair out of my face I tried to put it behind me but the anger still sat in my stomach. "You want the bloodshed to stop then there needs to be a truce between the clans. So we can all live in the valley peacefully" I said tensely.

Abby sighed crossing her arms. "I don't think a truce is possible at this time" she told me.

It was off putting to hear but there had to be a way for a truce. "We didn't think a truce was possible with the grounders but look at us now" I said.

She only shook her head unconvinced. "There's a lot of bad blood" she sighed.

"Mom, I want your support but I don't need it" I said confidently. She stared at me shocked. Turning away I opened the door and walked out. This truce will happen even if I die trying.