Toujours Pur ~James Potter x O/C

What an understatement

Regulus POV - {The evening of August 14th}

Today was supposed to be the happiest day of my life. It was going to be my wedding day. Although, even before everything that happened today happened, I knew that this day would be bad. What an understatement. There is no way I could have foreseen the horrors of today, if I could have, I would have done everything in my power to stop it. Why the fuck can't I see into the future!

Luna had been fighting this day ever since our parents announced we were going to get married. I can't blame her. I would have too...if it wouldn't have caused her death. I was just trying to protect her, but I ended up hurting her in the worst ways possible.

It all started when my Father, Malfoy, Snape and Rodolphus walked into my room. My groomsmen. I hated that they were going to be groomsmen, but I didn't really get a choice. Just like everything else that was happening in my life, that choice was taken from me.

When they walked in, they all were sharing a smirk that was honestly terrifying. If only I had known what that smirk meant. "Young Regulus, we have a...tradition when the men of this family get married" my Father told me. That stupid fucking tradition

"Oh Reggie, always so impatient, if you follow us you will find out" Malfoy said in the most condescending tone I had ever heard, and I grew up with my mother.

Nodding at him, I watched as the 4 men left the room, and then followed. I followed like I was their stupid little puppy, like I had nowhere else to go.

I was confused as to where we were going, it looked like we were heading to Luna's room, but that couldn't have been right. What reason would there be for her to be involved in this tradition? Yes, she was a member of our family, but she wasn't a man.

When we entered the room, she looked confused. Of course she was confused. 5 men had just entered her room and all she was wearing was her robe. There was something else as well, only in her eyes. It was an emotion she had gotten good at masking over the years, but I knew what it was. Of course I knew what it was, I was there when Sirius taught us both how to hide it so perfectly that it would be nearly impossible to tell that anyone of us felt it. It was fear.

While I had been studying Luna's face, the other men in the room had been speaking to her. They had been telling her, and by proxy me, the vilest thing I have ever heard. The words that will haunt me 

"The groomsmen get to have their fun with the bride"

"...whether she likes it or not..."

They were going to rape her.

My heart fell into my stomach. I should have done something. Anything. Anything would have been better than what I did.

Nothing.

I did nothing.

I just watched her get raped and did nothing.

It was like my brain was screaming at my limbs to move and they just wouldn't. I was frozen to the floor just watching the other men in the room, MY FATHER, rape my twin, my baby sister. They destroyed the person I had promised to protect, and I just watched, powerless to stop it.

I'm such a fucking waste of space.

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Blood.

There was blood everywhere.

It was pooling under her body.

I couldn't do anything.

I just had to watch.

~

I was going to get her hour of this house of horrors.

I had a plan.

The muggles that live next-door have a ladder that they often leave out in front of their house, perceiving this street as being a safe one, completely oblivious of their 'quiet' neighbours true colours. Having made sure that no one else would be arriving at the house, so no-one would see the next part of my plan, I snuck out to the front of the house to find the ladder. Using my wand, I floated the ladder, so it was leaning up against Lunas window and then I waited.

I had to make sure she got out.

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The second I saw her window open I bolted to the door, knowing that if she saw me, she would probably be terrified.

I had done that.

I had made my sister fear me.

I've become the monster that I always swore I would never become.

And I will never forgive myself.

A/N-

I had my friend read the book and they told me that there needed to be context for why Regulus did what he did on that day, so here you are :)

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