My King ✔️

Twenty

After the event I was exhausted. Jin and I walked around saying goodbye to all of the guests and by the time we were in the limo I was out. I fell asleep on Jin's shoulder, and somehow woke up in my bed in the middle of the night with him laying next to me.

I was still in my dress and he in his tux, so he must have been just as tired as I was. Thankfully I was able to wake him out of a dead sleep to get out of his tux and more comfortably in the bed.

The next morning, he was gone, which I was kind of thankful for. I had a lot to think about and I didn't really want to talk about it quite yet. I needed to gather my own thoughts first. While I was in the shower the first nagging thought hit me.

Would I really do that?

Abdicate the throne? 

I never really felt as if it was mine to begin with. The more I thought about it the more another very unnerving realization hit me. The people of my kingdom were really supportive of me coming here. It's the most supportive that they have ever been of me. To leave?

I was almost offended.

But then I heard my own voice reasoning with myself.

"They don't know you. Your father pushed you away every chance he got. Of course, they aren't excited for you to be on the throne. Why would they?"

But then how would it look on Jin. Marrying and coronating a queen who abandoned their own people. They wouldn't accept me. They wouldn't like that someone like me was marrying their king.

I was torn.

Stepping out of the shower I didn't have the energy to do much more than throw a towel on and let my wet hair fall down my back. It was warm outside so I figured I'd get some fresh air.

Leaning up against the balcony I could tell it was early in the morning. I wonder why Jin got up so early because I have been up for about an hour now. I saw in the distance that Yoongi was out by the basketball court and Hoseok was with him playing around. Jungkook must be on duty because Taehyung was out by the archery area by himself.

I closed my eyes are really thought for a moment.

If my own people didn't trust me. Then why would I continue to be their queen if the option to abdicate was on the table. We had a suitable replacement that my people would actually be happy about.

But what about Jin's people?

Would they be happy with a queen who walked away from her responsibilities?

The same questions kept circling through my head. I knew what I wanted to do. That part was clear when the offer was on the table. But could I do it?

Closing my eyes, I let out a deep breath trying to figure out some way that I could say yes to this and not have any consequences.

But that isn't realistic.

Just then a soft hand landed on my bare shoulder, and I opened my eyes to see Jin next to me.

"Hi." I breathed out, giving him a smile.

"Hello." He responded leaning on the balcony next to me. "Are you alright?"

"I am." I assured him. "Just have a lot on my mind I guess."

I sighed as he wrapped an arm around me, pulling me into him. I leaned there, letting him comfort me. He gave me several kisses to my neck, which weren't erotic but calming. His hands moved down from my back to my waist, just holding me.

"You don't have to do anything you don't want to." He said to me, making me pull back to look at him. "I only suggested what I did because I want you to be happy."