𝐑𝐈𝐃𝐄 | B.E

PART 8

008; experience

tw: mentions of drugs

+ new characters please check the cast chapter!

katherine's pov

i admired the gloomy weather with my heavy head resting on the car window as billie drove us to school, since it was becoming colder outside i wore a white oversized distressed sweater, a short black pencil skirt accompanied with fishnet tights, and a pair of high-top white air jordans. my damp auburn hair dried into wavy curls and my face stayed bare because i had no time to do my makeup.

"seriously kat my parents won't mind at all, they'll love you" billie continued to insist that i sleep at her house while my mom was out of town, she didn't want me to be alone with my father also neither did i. although i couldn't help but feel like a stray cat she stole off the side of the road.

"billie i'll be fine at home. i promise" i replied turning my attention to her, "my dad would literally kill me if i wasn't home tonight" i add somewhat sarcastically while adjusting my shirt that had gotten caught beneath the wire of my bra. billie subtly peered at me in her peripheral vision plus a light smirk laced on her lips before wetting them with her tongue.

"not if i kill him first" billie muttered beneath her breath her focus is now back on the road, "billie" i sighed out rubbing my eyes stressfully too mentally drained to continue our fight from earlier. as much as i desired to live in a world of imagination with her deep down i was aware that reality would punch me in the face the first chance it got.

"remind me why i haven't removed his head from his shoulders yet?" she asked in a serious tone while carelessly driving with her wrists resting on top of the wheel. "cause he's my father?" i replied in an obvious tone with furrowed brows.

i admired the rings that laced her fingers as she gently lifted one hand from the wheel and tucked a strand of blue hair behind her ear. billie's jawline was now within my eyesight forcing me to unwillingly stare for what felt like an eternity at her flawless smooth skin. it truly was enough to make a straight girl drool.

"right" billie dragged out with a small laugh. we let the silence fill the car for a moment and i gazed as the orange sunrise glimmered in her crystal blue eyes that always seemed to light up whenever she smiled.

the way she examined me from across the gear stick caused my heart to ache; her long blue hair, which harmonized with her ocean iris, laid so perfectly on her prominent chest along with the sparkling silver chains that jingled over every speed bump. billie's protective soul and warm heart made me so drawn to her.

she truly is unbelievably incredible which made it so hard to accept that she liked me.

it definitely hurt to admit that i liked her so much, i couldn't let myself fall for her because of how unstable i had become. i was visibly a wreck, that's a fact, and it wouldn't be fair on billie if i was unhappy all the time. she's done so much for me, taken care of me, and we weren't even together.

despite how terribly painful and bad my mental health was i wished to be a part of her life, whether it was the right choice or not i hoped we would fall into place and be carefree together. all of the selfless acts billie had done for me caused my feelings to grow at a rapid pace. no one had ever cared or loved enough to make me smile but she did.

at first, my traumatized brain kept telling me to run as far away from billie as humanly possible, terrified that my past would repeat itself and i'd be left alone in the dark. the fear of abandonment remained so strong but my feelings towards her were more powerful to the point where i was completely willing to take that risk of being hurt.