𝐑𝐈𝐃𝐄 | B.E

PART 19

019; brawl

tw: alcohol, relapse, and violence

billie's pov

after i ended the phone call i awkwardly cleared my throat sitting at the edge of the bed. "ana needs me" i explained. i glance over my shoulder gazing over at katherine who had cutely wrapped her half-naked body in a soft blanket. i sensed that she'd broken out of our sexual state and switched to being hyper self-conscious again.

"oh" katherine replied in a whisper. she sounded a little hurt that i'd be leaving although that's the last thing i wanted to do. her facial muscles relaxed as she bought her knees up to her chest for comfort, i noticed how she unexpectedly struggled to hold eye contact with me.

"does she need nail glue again?" katherine joked with a seemingly forced smile pretending as if she were okay. "no, she needs a ride home from a party" i elaborated.

i kept my eyes focused on kat patiently waiting for her to tell me what was bothering her. clearly, something had sent her paranoia spiralling since i sensed the clocks ticking in her mind racing at a hundred miles per hour.

there was a stony silence that flooded the bedroom for a moment and i watch katherine's face switch to a worried one, remaining to withhold eye contact from me. "angel?" i lean forward grasping her hand holding it in mine, an incredibly weak smile attached to her lips while staring down at our conjoined fingers.

"i promise i won't be gone long... and we can most definitely finish what we started" i refer to our make-out session that could've turned into our first time together if we weren't interrupted. she immediately shook her head, "you don't want to?" i asked. 

katherine's extremely quiet condition concerned me. a thousand possibilities rush across my brain attempting to guess what had gotten her so scared, timid, and nervous. 

"i do" she responded in a mutter. i watched as kat gulped tilting her chin down, "but?" i questioned maintaining a soft voice. before replying katherine chewed harshly on her bottom lip thinking hard about her answer.

"i am really sorry... it's my fault i shouldn't have gotten so carried away" she apologised with shaking lips while slipping our hands apart. my eyebrows knitted together i aimlessly scratch my scalp extremely confused.

"what are you talking about my love?" i scoot closer to katherine brushing the palm of my hand up to her knee lightly giving it a comforting squeeze. her eyes began quickly roaming around the room without focus glancing everywhere and anywhere but at me.

"we're supposed to be taking this slow, i am so sorry if i pressured you into this... i'm so used to relationships moving at a fast pace and then ending so quickly-" i immediately cut katherine off the moment she mentioned being used for sexual favours.

"woah... no, take a breath okay?" i demanded noticing how uneasy her chest seemed from speaking so quickly. i stare worriedly at katherine's extremely anxious state, her face remaining down feeling so terrible she felt the need to apologise for it.

"can you look at me?" i asked threading my thumb gently across her knee. katherine ignores me her mind too loud to even hear my voice, she kept her chin tilted down while she nervously picked the fluff off of the blanket.

"please?" i begged in a whisper. 

carefully, i lift katherine's chin up with my two index fingers. it took a moment or two but finally, kat's hazy eyes slowly glance up connecting with mine. gently my hand brushes up to caress her cheek holding her soft flawless skin against my palm. i admired her godly glossy blue eyes that without a doubt fluttered every single time she blushed.