𝐑𝐈𝐃𝐄 | B.E

PART 24

024; disposition

katherine's pov

my spine rests on the giant oak tree behind me, light rain drizzles down the leaves falling in front of me but thankfully never on me. i watch the road between the tall bark examining all the cars from a distance. i glance down for a moment at my now muddy converse in the dirt, small puddles surrounded me and the gloomy weather truly matched my mood.

deep down i knew there is slim to no chance of billie appearing, especially since i was in the place of our first kiss. nobody would want to revisit a memory like that after a breakup. at first i began walking not really knowing where i'd end up, and i have zero ideas of what i'm even going to say if she does show up.

i hear a loud engine coming down the forest pathway, luckily the place was pretty deserted at this time of night so no one would hear us talk... or fight. my gaze locked onto the motorbike and the blue-haired girl that so elegantly climbed of it quite quickly, suddenly lost for breathe i panicked feeling my flight mode kick in.

although i toughened up, billie slowly walks over with her head down the entire time until she reached me. our eyes synchronised and locked together both seeming so relieved, my heart pounds beneath my ribcage almost breaking its way through. from her soft facial expression, i knew this wasn't going to be a continuation of our fight.

regardless, i was so fucking happy to see her that i couldn't help but allow a slight tearful smile to attach itself to my lips.

"are you hurt?" billie asks before saying anything else. obviously worried that my father had gotten a hold of me throughout the past two weeks, "god please tell me you're okay" she demands in a weak tone of voice.

"i'm okay" i nod watching a relieved sigh escape from billie's chest. "a-are you okay?" i questioned noticing the abundance of redness surrounding her eyes, i played with the long sleeves of my burgundy knitted sweater while keeping my focus entirely on her.

"honestly... not at all" billie admitted with a slight croak in a voice. she shook her head before glancing down at the ground, "i am so sorry i said those things to you" a sniffled apology left her lips i noticed how she accessively blinked holding back tears, it wrenched my heart as if someone had a tight grasp on it.

"i am so angry at myself for it you don't understand" billie elaborated with a more confident voice. finally gaining more insight into how she'd been feeling the past fourteen days was so consoling for me, now i'd gotten the reassurance that none of it at all was meant harshly.

instead, it had been a regretful word used in a moment of madness.

"please tell me what's going on in your head right now" she begged. i sighed nervously knowing if i started talking there was zero chance of stopping me until i was done. i'd imagined every single scenario possible of how our conversations would go, but now i am at a loss for words.

"i've been a complete mess without you" i admitted in a sensitive voice clenching my jaw. the rain became a little heavier causing billie's hair to darken, but nothing at all bothered us right now the only thing we wanted to do was talk no matter the weather.

"and my dad's going to therapy... which has been so fucking weird, that's also messing with my head" i explained. immediately billie's eyebrows furrow in utter confusion and disbelief at everything i had said, her head was taken back a little and it took her a moment for it to sink in.

something that she'd said during our fight spun around like a carousel inside my head, i couldn't move on without telling her what i'd been thinking for months.